im not Christian; just agnostic.

;Thursday, August 7, 2008

TIME:12PM

i can onli online MSN and login my blogger now.. all other website juz doesnt respone.. -_-

later i have 2 program on.. 1st dinner wid jiaen, 2nd meet mak and yang to drink.. and i'm not going to school.. =)

ppl who really know my past keep asking me not to hate ppl, because i tell them this " once a lover, there's no way we'll be friends after we break up, i will take the initiative to hate them" u can say i'm weak or finding excuses but by hating them, it helps me to move on faster. i didnt wan to list example but i still have to and tat would be RAWRsis, have u tink tat by hating him, u will move on real fast? i know u still love him deeply but if u have the mental will to hate him, he's no one to u in no time. BAD INFLUENCE HERE OK! DON LEARN =x

i've seen kel reflecting since the semester is coming to an end.. guess it's my turn to reflect on all the true friends i've made in W64N.. and i have more than 6 person to write actually =x

Wen Jie - i'm sort of connected wid him, cause he is suling de ex classmate but wen jie is one of the few i enjoy working wid in class cause he will do work and contribute. he like to put plane alot in the area of free time but still, he do give us SOME of his time, tks dude

joyco - starting not close at all de, but suddenly keep suan me is kungfu panda~ this gal is thick skin X100 trust me.. got comedian de nature also~ buay pai.. HAHA. she also like to plane ppl =( but can see her really making effort to spilt her time well..

joycely - one of the 1st two fren i've made in this class cause last time i no time meet chris for makan so follow her.. she is...... explosive~ very outgoing and never fail to do stunt but can see she's one of the MOST hardworking person to keep this friendship of seven. tks da jie, wish u and ur bf long long nine nine..

parry - this guy also connected wid me through chris.. i realise it during week 13? rofl~ he got temporary emo mood one.. but he very yandao, quite sad tat i got him as my classmate, coz the rest of the guys look like shit.. LOL! jkjk parry~ we love u! but i got 1 question to u~
will parry hilton go back to hannah montena? if it really happen, hollywood sure can earn big bucks soon =D

KELvin TAN KAI QUAN - this one bo bian muz write full name coz his skin is thick like.... elephant.. yes, he is a gay who have almost similar thinking wid me.. if i muz write about him, blogger server will explode so i cut things short.. I have many brothers in my life who have come and go, u will be one in my heart forever =)

andrew - the biggest regret wid u i ever had is i never have the chance to team wid u for the past 16 weeks.. got 1 faci RJ comment mentioned 2 tiger cannot hide in 1 mountain.. so i guess tat's why we cant group wid each other.. but i gonna say, u R the best in this class, i'm juz a weakling la~ sometimes i wish u can speak chinese, than we surely can hit off very very well, not becoz i'm racist dude, i juz suck at language command when it comes to speaking english, but tks for teaching me the mymmar vulgarities, now i can go scold ppl!! =D

rosebel - MEI GUI LING AR MEI GUI LING~~~ i didnt wan to say de lor but blog is for us to express feeling so i cannot hide, do u know there's this very pleasant scent around u forever -_-" sometimes i really imagine if got bee hive in class, if all the bee run out sure go sting u one, coz the scent is so sweet tat kind.. u bath in sugar syrup?!?! bandung is put condense milk one u know =\ OOPS~ later ur bf come whack me XD BUT BUT~ u R someone i find comfortable talking to lor. tks mei gui ling

ShiYing - actually from the start, this gal is juz a random popout................ stun eh? not my class one i still write ur name.. i already treat u like a W64N know why? coz all the PPT u share wid me was PRICELESS~ rofl! somemore ur cousin rosebel also share 6P wid u i tink.. sometimes i see my slide and her slide is like the same, not from 6P but from your's -_-" anyway u know u and ur cousin got 1 similar point? both of u is good to chat wid.. tks =)

kayathree - nigga~ yea u! don look around.. it's u! i wanted to write u as last one to discriminate u but someone more important have to be last so u be last 2nd ok? u R a great contributor who never doubt me when leading the team while doing problems, and u save half of my ass by showing mi us PP so i know how to do.. but i cant stop making fun of YOU!! HAHAHA.. and seriously u R so LoL, jump off the chair when i bang the glass.. LOLOLOL~~

yes, the most important one is always the last, i wanted to slot u at the top wid the other 5 but i cant lie to my feelings so here u R, the last one i'm so not gonna forget in W64N and it's YOU.

yu zhen, if i still don say anything at this point of time, i'll really be sorry to myself.. let mi start from the very start
u are the other 1 of the 1st two person i know in class cause we went to break together. I still wonder why i went break wid juz 2 gal during the start of the sem -_-" but it was fun la, we chatted and alot of lmao thing happen and it helps mi alot especially when mi and my ex broke up le because u and joycely became a pillar of strength for me to come school cause i don tink so much when hanging around wid u gals rather than emo-ing alone.

other than andrew, u are the other one who i desire the most for my dream team. Hardworking, focus, participative was what i saw from u or shld i say all those point starts to attract me about ur existence, actually i wanted to get ur MSN but didnt have the courage to ask.. LMAO~ than i rmb it was database module and i had to send u something so i finally added u.
so we started chatting and i know ABIT more about u although u still have tons of things that u lockup to urself.. i really wish i can share ur sorrows wid u and that was the point when i ask myself, why am i having this feeling for u? i took sometime to ask myself and i realise it, this feeling is no ordinary feelings. It's really love i have for u but i did not take action because i was not ready then~ so i blogged some footer and in E end BOOM~ exposed.. i didnt want u to know because even the smallest thing also make u go "STRESS AHHH"

the happiest moment was the night after grasx. U msg ME.. oh my god~ i cant explain the feeling at tat moment, actually W64N alot of san gu liu po so i already know that u know i like u but i still confess to u on tat night as it would be more appropriate that i tell u.. after this confession, I've been thinking how to make you mine but there were times when i have flashback of the past, i told myself i cant court u if the past still haunt me because when it talks about going into 1 relationship, i give my 101% and i know at that stage i cant give u my 101% so i continue to observe ppl around u and i found "him" who i thought might be more suitable to u than me thus i trash things out with "him" and he accepted he had love for u so he started to take action

my heart aches so much but i just remain in silent.. so one night around 2+ am when i was drinking wid my fren, "him" call me and say "zhen shoot all the 3 guys in her blog", tears almost came out but i force myself to swallow it back. but when i reach home i read tat post and i don think it as shooting -_-. it was the truth, and it was this post u wrote that makes me so freaking helpless suddenly. Helpless in the sense that I really wan you to be my gal but i cant due to some external factors..

we didnt really stop chatting u know? all this while, if you've notice we are trying to tell each other something in some of our post's footer note.. I know i've waste tat initiate chance, will I still have any chance of making you mine?

will you let mi know how u feel
will you give mi da chance to give u a sense of security
will you allow me to do something for u
will you let me take care for u
will you ever give me the key?
not to ur house -_-" , but ur heart. =p

I've never forget what you told me 'IWantYouToBeHappy'. For me to be happy I just wan you to be happy too. it's just tat simple.

-Avenger In The Making
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