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The world is evil, I hate the world: how society functions, how materialistic we all are, how judgemental we are, how appearance orientated we all are, how capitalist we have turned out, how sinful we are, how selfish we are, how we destroy our world I reckon God should just kill us all and start the human race again.. No, im not Christian just agnostic.

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;Thursday, May 29, 2008

TIME:11.55PM

i thought java was really hard toady.. mayb becoz i felt insecure wid andrew's absent.. he's a java pro in class.. but somehow i manage to survive the day =)

after presentation i left to meet von at yck than go amk hub.. wanted to get my dark eye ring lotion at O2 skin care.. now they having 1 for 1 sales.. anybody need black head remover. eye ring lotion or acne gel? if got plz tell mi can.. i wan find ppl share wid me.. 1 person around $35.. cheap de lo~

ok.. u might tink why is a man getting such gay lotion for himself.. i'll be frank.. i will start taking diet pill when i'm financially stable.. alex chua need a change.. and i know it cant be achieving by my childish tinking of slping early(eye ring) and going jogging + gym (FATS) to solve my 2 main concern now.. i'll let pills and medicine to lessen the situation than i start doing those things to help me.. tat would be a better idea..

my close fren know I have plenty of As for my daily grade.. but after 1 year.. this is the 1st record i've finally broken for myself.. it really motivates me at least 1% to study.. i finally achieve all A in the same week.. FINALLY!!



OWNING!


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;Tuesday, May 27, 2008

TIME:12AM

ok.. juz a quick post.. i hate my long hair now.. very irritating can? gonna cut it asap..

school was fun today, taking pictures around the campus.. and than putting it into a website..

ok.. i'm in a rush.. chris and my bro waiting for me to play dota.

blog again =x


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;Saturday, May 24, 2008

TIME:12.15AM

uploaded a new song.. sound track from "accuracy of death"

today was busy.. but today was fun.. really fun.. w/o the old ppl around at work.. juz the teenagers.. even it's so busy.. we still joke and crap around.. somehow when the old peeps R around.. work seems very serious.. =\

i have 2 colleagues at work.. both thinking of quitting.. i really love working with both of them A LOT.. but part timers come and go, i don see the point to keep them if their heart is not at work.. if they really quit.. manna will be really dull.. left jia en and me.. and there will for sure be new part timers.. and i have to know new ppl again.. so boring =.=

tml working 12 again.. than monday sch and working again.. WOO.. i'm gonna drain my energy so much.. argh =\

okies.. gtg..


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;

TIME:12.15AM

HAPPY B'DAY SHI YING~~

so zhun i ask for ur link today than i go see see look look than so zhun it's ur b'day~ HAHA

sch was okay today.. UT was also ok.. nothing much appealing happening in my life now =)

after sch went out wid my family for dinner opposite the sembawang shopping centre de zi cha.. it was celebration for my dad's b'day.. food was good. i would recommend it to ppl staying in sembawang onli.. so if u stay other place.. don come ok~ it's nice food but not the nice type tat can make u crazy for it.. ok? i don know wtf i talkin now also =.=

after dinner.. my bro wanted to treat me watch movie, how can i reject it? it's been so long since we catch a show.. went to see accuracy of death.. i would rate 3.5/5.. it's really funny show.. and the sound track is nice too.. a show worth entering the cinema to watch.. =)

alright.. here's the sad part.. gonna work full shift on sat and sunday.. sian T_T

will blog again


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;Wednesday, May 21, 2008

TIME:10.20PM

my brother treated me lunch at MOS burger today because i juz return him $110($80 for cordon bleu and $30 for my dad's b'day present) so he "felt" rich thus he treat me.. LOL~ i was well-aware that my dad's b'day is around the end of may but because of financial issues.. i'm working alot and there's not time slot for his dinner.. i'm a bad son, sry~

i suddenly tio enlighten this afternoon after chatting wid my brother.. actually all along, i might have been a mentally tortured person trying to have a sense of responsibility to myself so i feel my existence and all along i took
her as my responsibility.. yes, there was love between us BUT i guess the love was gone after like 10 months actually. I hang onto her because she has become a liability to me, I told myself i muz be responsible for the things i've said, i promised her i'll be there for her forever and ever and never leave her out of the lurch..

There was a period I really wanna break up with
her but i still hang on, I was confident I could find my "feel" back BUT somehow i forgot that u lost ur "feel" for me too. Chris was right, he have been motivating me to break up actually becoz from a 3rd party view, he say i've already love her no more, sorry for not taking ur opinion chris =\ mayb i should have broke up with her earlier but well, she've ended it herself already..

i'm trying very hard to take the past 2 years as a dream, in the meantime, i wanna study as usual, earn more money and not forgetting to spend time with my brothers. i feel that the air i breath now are much more better because i've offload my responsiblity
(her) and i'm like a free man again.. and since i've become fat, i guess no gals would want me, HAHA! people are materialistic, if u tell mi looks doesnt matter.. u R juz lying to urself..

but 1st of all, i still wanna enjoy my singlehood. CLUB SMOKE DRINK will always my 1st priority for now, we all have to die one day so why not juz enjoy? even if u don smoke and drink, u still die plus the fact is u die slower but is that wat u wan? i cant stand how this world works, looking at it for 1 more second makes me sick =\ juz see how ppl react to si chuan earthquake, ppl R telling me how poor thing those china ppl R.. i admit they R very poor thing.. but do u know wat those ppl was chatting wid me 5 months ago? they were cursing the china ppl coz they R coming to steal our job. fucking lmao~ ppl healthy u curse them, now they got natural disasater u pity them.. wtf?

i actually went for a jog this evening and i ran 1.6 KM w/o stopping.. it's quite a remarkable acheivement for a smoker and someone who hasnt do sports for quite awhile~ HAHA..

and one last thing i wanna tell u ppl.. i've wake up from my sleep, i've finally take action, don get the wrong idea.. i still haven find a new gal but wat i'm saying is.. i throwed away things that shouldnt be in my room anymore =)


a big packet of rubbish that went into the waste bin today after clearing up.


for the past 2 years, i was living in a black and white world, thinking and pondering about my responsibility and future.


but now, i could see the blue sky and feel the wind again, i realise the world did not stop spinning and i've to catch up if not it's too late.. and even at dark nights.. there will be a lamp for me.. LOL~



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;Tuesday, May 20, 2008

TIME:9.30PM

i woke up as usual today.. but chris msg me say he go school 1st.. so i emo awhile and decided not to go sch! HAHA.. really wasted.. i shld have plan last week that i shall not go school today becoz if u've tink about it.. i juz have a five day holiday~ from sunday till wed.. shoik sia.. now make mi like totally no mood to go back school anymore.. anyway wid tat racist faci around.. i'll juz get a B.. yawn~

i'm having migraine again.. why am i so suay? =\


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;Sunday, May 18, 2008

TIME:4.45PM

DAMN BORED LA~~ i've been reading people's blog and surfing net for the past 2 hours.. my parents went on a date~ my bro is out celebrating his fren b'day.. i working at 5 and there's nothing i can do seriously rather than just rotting in front of my comp now and drinking my Chivas alone =(
bro's red wine is tempting me to open it and try.. but i shall wait for him to be at home 1st :D

ytd night i went to meet my bro (tom, nik and mak) at coffeeshop to company them eat supper and they was mentioning going to MOS today.. sorry bros, cant join u guys today. nik was telling us he actually spend more than his budget at zouk, i'm not surprise because the amount we drink sure exceed, wat i'm surprise is he found out so late that he overspent -_-" i thought he was well aware in zouk already.. haha~ too bad nik =p i'll discuss wid the peeps regarding ur present de budget again~ =x

nik is really such a bimbo.. requesting dumbbells as present.. but maybe it's tat silly perseverance which makes him the onli 6 pack guy in our brotherhood.

as for yang.. he wanted a liquor so... since we guys love burbon coke at club/pub so much.. i've have found a liquor for u.. it's quite rare so i'll have to search for it a bit 1st coz i don know spore market got import ma.. might take sometime =x it's call maker's mark burbon whiskey.. very nice de design.

i don know if it's religion influence or upbringing method.. i find my parents way of teaching so different from some of my friend..
i admire those parent who take their children like friends and they R so agonizing close until the children are so open to speak up with their parents..
my parents are rather different, they believe in the theory of beating is caring, scolding is loving their children and my mum's plus point: SHE'S FARKING SARCASTIC.. for the past few weeks.. she keep poking mi about HER and i really feel like scolding my mum.. wat's the point of poking ur son with those stupid comment? who don fail in r/s? from the day she know about my breakup, she has not say 1 word of consolation for me.. all she do is putting salt on my wound..
all the things that was given by HER are still lying around in my room.. and each day when my mum passby the room.. she start nagging me stupid thing.. PLZ STFU

jia en msg HER tat night when i was at zouk.. and as expected.. there was smth u didnt told me but luckily through jia en i am able to know.. your mentality are really weak, come to tink of it.

i juz found out smth.. my house no JUNK FOOD~ OMG LA~~ wanted to have some snacks while drinking and blogging but no sights of tidbits in my house! T_T i'm drinking chivas and eating cheese + ang ku kueh + cream cracker now.. ROFL~~ alright.. time to sign off while uploading some pics at the fish market on friday..

lastly i wanna congratulate myself.. for spending 1 hour to blog this shit out and helped myself to waste plenty of time =D


Me, Loong, sean, Keong

the peeps, MISSING: nik, tom, yun, mak

FOOD


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;Saturday, May 17, 2008

TIME:11.44AM

JOANNA aka MEOWsis is PSQ(pang sei queen)!! lol~ ok.. due to mother nature structure, she was not able to go phuture with us ytd night but i quite happy she's not there.. ytd was chaos.. i had enough headache looking after my guys =\ (I MENTION UR NAME 1ST LIAO OK)

so~~ let's start wid DINNER ytd night.. i went Manhattan fish market which is located at plaza sing to eat. i'm gonna be truthful.. 3.5/5 would be my rating but the not so good part is the sucky ambiance(too cramp) and the platter was not really well organise.. mostly are deep fried item and those deep fry item never make dry 1st than serve thus making food oily and they put a whole piece of dory on top of the fries and the oil from the fish juz go directly down to the fries making it soggy.. the plus point is.. when they juz serve it.. eating the food fast and hot taste really fantastic..
Peep for dinner was: JOANNA, von, yang, keong, glen, sean, yuwen, loong, ME :)

after dinner i went to buy my cigg and all 9 of us walk from PS to youth scape park at cine there. jo, von and sean went home and the rest of us took bus there.. hang provide wrong info and we alight one stop earlier =.=

ok.. so the rest of us went to zouk and here was BRIEFLY what we drink coz i forgot how much we REALLY drink: 3 rounds of tequila shot, 10 jugs of burbon coke, 6 jugs of long island, 2 cup red bull vodka, 1 cup of cranberry vodka.. so let's guess.. who's the bimbo of the day? HAHA~

NIKORASU TIO OWN AGAIN!! ROFL~ 1st to be KO ytd night.. fuck u nik.. do u know wat u do? u fucking vomit on my shoe.. tks ar brother.. he was leaning beside the drain from 1+ am all the way till we leave.. i thought he was the only one KO.. so some guys company him and the rest of the guys went in to drink for second round in E end 2nd person KO~ and it's the 2nd b'day guy.. yang!! =.=

the rest was still ok.. juz feeling drowsy and abit feel like vomiting but i guess they can control their own action in public.. one person that i'm worried if he's still alive is GLEN~ where the fuck were u?? we all outside liao call u, sms u never reply.. tom even went inside and find u but cant find @_@.. i hope u R doing well bro.. lol..

tat's about the zouk part.. not gonna elaborate more coz i'm sorta late for work.. now is 11.42am i workin at 12..

the last thing i wanna say is.. i'm so sorry august.. i really feel so fucking bad.. coz.. the drunkards vomited on ur car.. i'm really sorry bro... i'm feeling fucking guilty now.. SORRY BRO! T_T

ok.. gtg.. late for work


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;Thursday, May 15, 2008

TIME:12AM

today was a good day.. my teammates was rather hardworking all of a sudden~ hahaha..

lesson was a revision for me actually.. back to crimping of wires.. i will show a pic later.. i spend around 1 hour doing it =.=" skill rusty liao

i find myself ultra contradicting now.. i wanna shake off my beer belly but my body doesnt wan to listen to me, on several occasion i keep wanting to reach home, change le than go jogging but my body juz won listen.. In the end i went to bath and then sit in front of my comp doing nth..

anyway i feel like going Ktv but i feel that partyworld and kbox's english is really wtf.. i don wanna go into a ktv wid the only latest chinese song! :( so freaking racist

so i went to the net to find for ENGLISH SONG based KTV.. guess wat.. i found 1 place but i not sure isit close le ma.. the link is here:
http://www.yebber.com/review/top-one-ktv/

ok.. if u guys R too lazy to click, i'll do a summary of the review given by a customer:

Shop Name:
Top one KTV

Location:
530 North Bridge Road #02-01 Bugis Point
Singapore
Telephone: (65) 6238-8198
Category: Karaoke

COOL OR WAT SIA???

omg la.. she describe this place like heaven liao lo =.=" can smth so good really exist in spore?! $17nett and choose 1 drink free flow all the way =D

i seriously shld try it one day =)

but b4 i crave my KTV session, tml is the big day. Yang, Nik and Von b'day celebrate. current plan is dinner at Plaza Sing's Fish Market and after that Zouk's Phuture, yang N nik's gonna treat for zouk i tink.. i hope no1 get dead-drunk like last wed, in public somemore. =\

WANNA KNOW WAT IS CRIMPING?

TADAH~ it's about sorting the 8 color wired and than slot it into a RJ45 head.. looks interesting but it's totally NOT... T_T


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;Wednesday, May 14, 2008

TIME:12.15AM

HELLO PPL~

today i meet up wid my bro yang to go and chop our passport.. was rather worried at the start becoz my 2 other bro wen and nik last wed went there need to remake which cost $70 because their photo too different liao.. so i scare i need to remake also.. all the bros went to chop passport for 1 reason: mak's 21 b'day :D he's going back to his msia hse to celebrate coz they machiam like chalet le and also because spore's chalet either fully booked if not too ex =(

but the wait at ICA was really short.. 20 minute only.. after tat head back to semb wid yang for lunch than after tat he needed to head home to revise his test so i went to tom's hse for MJ.. spent some good time wid the peeps: tom, yun, keong, jun, nik and jing ting.. at least i don go around imgaine things when i'm wid my best bros/buddies..

tml is back to school again.. i don know why but tat stupid teacher who claim he is from NAFA is really damn irritating.. he keep giving me B grade.. he talk wid a sarcastic way and he loves to suan us.. i tink he is racist because i have tis feeling~

GIVE ME MY 'A' !! I DON WANNA DROP MY GPA ANYMORE~ DAMN IT


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;Tuesday, May 13, 2008

TIME:

o man.. it's may 13 today ppl.. it was suppose to be one of my happiest day but in E end i woke up this morning hoping i was dead on the may of 13 and revive myself on the 14.. i wanted to skip today's lesson but wid all the encouragement going around my ears.. how can i fucking skip school because of a bitch? i shld step out of my house and have fun and indeed i've made the correct decision.. school was easy today, expect at least a B or A today ba.. i was lucky too~ i left home really late like 7.55 but i reach school at 8.27 which means i'm not late~

during faci's turn to present.. i really sorta doze off.. it always happen during java and sometimes networking module.. they always force me to break limit but lucky they don penalise student who slp in class.. last sem i got penalise from A to B grade juz becoz i sleep during faci's presentation! =.=

i'm now totally delayed in my schedule.. my plan for the 2000 words report has been push back because of this breakup, although the deadline is at september but seriously.. my aim is july~

after all tis fuckup things, i cant wait for friday.. 2 weeks never club liao !! since i'm single now, i guess i'm back to the old days.. can anyone guess what is it???

SMOKE - DRINK - CLUB - WOMEN
BUT
*WARNING to ALL*
SUCH ACTIVITIES CAN BE MONEY CONSUMING AND ADDITIVE, DO IT ONLY IF YOU CAN HANDLE IT.

=)

Some picture i manage to during last friday night drinking session got disgusting content. BEWARE when SCROLLING DOWN:

i'm half asleep already =.= bro4life

firstly he take a picture wid me

secondly he ask us to leave him alone

next he juz went ahead and slp on the floor creating obstacles for everyone

lastly he unleash his ultimate move, point middle to me and vomiting the shit out of himself.. LOL

tat's all peeps
will blog after yang, nik and von b'day :)


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;Saturday, May 10, 2008

TIME:5PM

I would talk about the place i hate most 1st.. RP.. i got an A for my java tis week.. i'm surprise.. i believe it's the help of the demonic RJ i have wrote that helped me earn this A.. personally, i think that this is the most inhuman RJ i have write b4 but cmon.. RP is a mental torture environment.. been kind to other ppl is sacrificing your grade.. i don feel bad for writing that RJ becoz i really feel like a one man team with no help..

after near 5 weeks of school.. there's still smth i like about going this class.. although there are really some weakshits that do nth.. alot of my current classmates still R able to do work and the best part is there's no "shooter" in my class.. peace and harmony :) i feel very secure especially when the likes of yu zhen, wen jie and andrew is in my team.. they R willing to learn and share.. tat's the best kind of teammate u can get seriously..

alright.. enough of RP.. i'm getting sick juz by mentioning this place..

i shall say how's life been back to singlehood now.. i'll be frank, i still cant get over it but i can take it.. sometimes after school I would sit in class feeling this "emptiness" in my life because in the past i would be like msging her or meeting up wid her but now.. i don know wat to do.. either i go home and slp or i stay in class till like 5 or 6 than go home..

ytd night after work.. i went home to bath, go coffeeshop packet than headed to tom hse to chill out wid my bros.. mak, nick, jun and yun was there.. they have brought a bottle of barcadi than mak also bring his half bottle of chivas.. mi and mak were still tinking we shouldnt have buy the barcadi.. sure cannot finish the chivas one.. because the one drinking were onli me, mak, nik and tom.. tom and nik R not heavy drinker.. mak and me will onli be heavy drinker if there's cigarette around but we don have.. so 4 of us were suppose to be like drink for relaxing onli.. in E end........ we drink finish all the liquor and nick created havoc at tom's house.. HAHAHA

ok.. i've really been emo because of so many thing.. i'm really thankful my bros were able to company me esp on a friday night which i really wan to chill out and drink and we seriously drink till our heart content ytd night.. after drinking the half bottle of chivas and half bottle of barcadi.. mak, me and tom was high and we were spouting nonsense, nik was sitting on the sofa bed calmly listening to us talk.. so i did something sinful.. there was no coke left.. i suggest a toast and it was the half bottle of barcadi into 4 cup and all KOSONG with NO ICE~ we toasted and nik already lying at the table slping.. and he could feel that he cannot walk le so he decide to stay overnight at tom house wid mak.. so we dragged him to one side and unfold the sofa bed for him.. but fucking hell the moment he lie down, he vomited.. mak trying to calm himself so he sat at the chair, tommy also getting high and walking around like gonna GG soon liao.. yun had to look after baby and tom, jun was stun and didnt know wat to do.. in E end i muz kio the sai for nick.. i cleaned him up and allow him to spit in my hand which was holding a very thin piece of clothes.. i wonder if he chew his food b4 swallow or juz swallow everything.. he spit out a whole piece of beef.. still haven chew tat kind de lo.. trust me it's ultra disgusting.. juz by imagining it can be disgusting, especially now i feel it in person.. all my goosebumps coming out liao !!!!! T_T

i was tipsy liao but i still had to go home because i working today 11am.. jun was sweet to msg me if i reach home liao ma.. LOL! tks jun~ i went to slp at around 2am.. and 3am to near 5am was a memorable moment for me.. i was happily hugging my toilet bowl and vomiting like free.. i vomit till i feel like my guts or something R gonna be vomit out also.. when i finally can stand up and rinse my mouth.. i saw the mirror and my eye were blood red.. come to tink of it, that was a nice effect.. mayb i force myself vomit next time than i dress myself as dracula to attend hallowean party.. LOL~

today still, i woke up at 10 having migraine + hang over from the liquor.. my head was spinning 360 but i still insist to go to work because i find it rather irresponsible to miss work juz because i'm having hang over.. so i manage to survive work wid some accident because i am not working in a 100% clear mind.. i cut my finger, burned my hand and dropped a knife in the kitchen =x


our drink last night


tat's my nephew mikel.. he had a task given by the school to create a costume using recycle material XD


sal gave me tis choc and sweet to brighten up my day :)


taken at zouk last time but we R the 4 drinker i mention as aboved.
FROM LEFT: HAVOC CREATOR Nicholas, mak, me, tommy

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;Monday, May 5, 2008

TIME:10PM

seriously.. after tis breakup.. there's so much thing i have to do.. in my room now.. there's 2 portrait hanging on my wall now which was a gift by her and our couple ring R still on my computer table.. even the bag i carry to sch everyday is given by her and till now, everyone tink i'm sick, i'm forever carrying the bag across me and i wont leave it on the floor.. becoz it's a precious item to me.. so no matter wat i will not put it on the floor.. but whatever i do, it's too late..

actually on the night we broke up was the night my bro came back from hong kong and he msged me when he was at custom and i told him i've broke up and tell him to buy some beer home coz i didnt really have much cash to spend on hard liqour now but this big brother of mine sure knows how to make me feel better.. he came home w/o my BEER.. zzz.. but instead he brought me a fucking cordon bleu.. SONG BO~ another collection for me liao.. LOL.. market price - 320, DFS - 170.. and my bro say when i not so cash tight le juz give him $80.. such a good deal la.. tks bro!

sch was as usual today.. but after sch i meet up wid dy and had dinner wid her, she was like suppose to counsel me by in E end i became the one giving some lame suggestion to her while counseling her.. LOL~ it doesnt matter who counsel who as long as we had great laughter, isnt it dy? chatted from 5 all the way till like 7.. and finally reaching home, after bath my hair was wet i forgot than i took a quick nap.. now my head is tearing apart.. i tink it's migraine.. damn it..


b4 unwrapping


proudly present my martel cordon bleu~ XD


hk is really no life.. onli got many different type of lao po biscuit =.=


my bro's new obsession.. red wine, cost onli $40


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;Saturday, May 3, 2008

TIME:

friday evening jo called me and say she broke up wid glen and she was so sad that she wanna meet and drink.. so mak, me, nick, yang, glen, tom and yun went to rach house and find her.. i'll cut the story short.. she's ok wid her bf le i tink.. in E end cabbed back home wid glen, yang and jo.. we did drink a havoc and sinful drink.. mixing coke wid chivas, martel corden bleu and vodka can be deadly ppl

today.. alot of things happen.. i don know how to list it all out.. but the most impt event is

the end has come, i saw it coming but all along i've been trying to avoid it..
this 23 month relationship has come to an end
all the words and effort i put in to savage us was ineffectual to u
now i truly understand how i am ranked in ur heart
work is forever most impt than anything else in ur life
i hope 1 day u find someone that is more impt than work
i've failed at changing that mindset of u
i'm not worthy of ur love
i juz feel like a weakshit now
ppl around me keep saying time will heal the wound
i don tink it's tat easy
tks for shaing all those once happened happy moment wid me
and u propose a breakup within even thinking twice
my brother have even brought u some things in HK by my request
i tink i'll juz let those thing be in the dustbin
juz like how tis relationship has been put into the waste bin by u
thank you for the lesson u have taught me

u won even be seeing my blog.. i wonder why i post so much about u..
mayb u were not even there for me since the day we were together, wat u have done is really heartless.. mayb it's the one fatal stab u give me so that i can wake up

it's the 2nd time i have a kind of feeling of hating and loving the same person in my life..

1st was zanny
now it's u..

i don even know how to proceed anymore, i'm scare that the next r.s i move into.. there might be such random nonsense happening again.. NO MOOD TO DATE ANYMORE as a simple excuse and it simply destroy the r.s..

tks, but no tks

seriously after drinking wid nick, tom and jun juz now and now i juz finish drink a few cup of chivas kosong.. i don know wat i'm blogging.. sorry everyone.. i better go back to msn now... alot of ppl giving me tis weakshit free counselling now.. i muz go back and attend to them

sal, chris, wendy, von, yang, yu zhen, tom, nick.. thank u all and i might miss some name.. sorry if i didnt list out ur name.. wat else can i say? i seriously have great friends.

thank u ppl

back to drinking and MSN.

Blogged @ 11:22 PM

;Thursday, May 1, 2008

TIME:11.50PM

hi ppl.. i woke up today feeling really good because i heard tat my dad will be going on leave rather than quitting his job which means the family income will be back to stable, i had a fantastic plate of wanton mee tis morning brought by my parents in the market.. imagine wanton mee + pig skin and the soft intestine.. omfg.. tat's the best breakfast u can get la.. SLURP~

but guess wat.. i came online to check liverpool score and than i enter my student portal to check daily grade.. very sadly i go press the PP button and see my status.. my mentor has asked for a rework that i don know how to work on..

Project title: redo and make it more solid. Imagine everyday the assessor has looked at 30-40 students and all bored the whole-day. If you can catch their attention with some interesting title, that will already win in the 1st leg. Your content can be the same, just another pretty packaging. Scope: Measuring customer service is Key performance indicator(KPI)of each restaurant. You may want to add a bit more on how country mana is compared to competitors' in terms of customer service and what their future direction is. Service is not only training but more variety of food to choose from and ambience, etc. Not just waiters & waitresses.

ok.. i accept the part about my project title, i'll ask ppl around me for ideas.. but the rest all does not make sense.. how do u compare customer service btw 2 company.. tat means i muz survey 2 company to compare and contrast instead of one.. than he ask mi to add A BIT on how manna's future direction is.. i can give him the answer straight away.. CONFIRM CLOSE DOWN.. but i'm gonna fail for sure if i say tat.. i'm not god.. how do i know the future of manna.. he say service is not onli training but more food and ambience.. i'm doing on CUSTOMER SERVICE, can u read english?!?! ask mi do about the food and ambience for wat? i'm not aexpert food guide..

i'm juz a puppet created by god to enter tis world and fulfil my mission as a human.. to suffer and die.. why does other human being get all the good shits and i get the worst shits.. i don really enjoy been in this world.. the onli thing i enjoy is sitting in front of my comp and listening to music, the minute i step out of my house.. everything bad comes to me.. i'm in great despair and sorrow.. i'm lost... it's 11.50.. i don even have mood to work and i have to get there in 10 minute time..

FUCK IT


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