The world is evil, I hate the world: how society functions, how materialistic we all are, how judgemental we are, how appearance orientated we all are, how capitalist we have turned out, how sinful we are, how selfish we are, how we destroy our world I reckon God should just kill us all and start the human race again.. No, im not Christian just agnostic.

; Alex Chua ; 1st of December

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TIME:1.15am

isit my mind that is thinking too much
or
i simply cant accept the things i saw with my own eyes

i'm depress, really depress~ i fucking teared in bed before falling asleep ytd night because tat's the only time i allow my emotions to take over me. I don know wat's right or wrong anymore and nothing seems to ease my sorrow..

isit the lack of alcohol in my blood? or the lack of nicotine? it seems like i've reach the limit somehow

i rather live my life on a monday - friday basis, i'm starting to hate weekends

if u R reading this than i congrat u for been smart enough to highlight it and read, i don wan to waste time and create a private journal. wat's the point? black font is good enough becoz i don believe everyone is smart enough to highlight this and read.

TIME:12am

let's not have emo talk tonight cause 26 june will be a happy day and no one should emo~ reason been it's my MEI de BIRTHDAY! happy birthday to you shan shan =D

time really fly and it's been 3 years since we know each other

during 07, the pee buddies could not give u a proper celebration
during 08, becoz of JAVA i didnt take time out from my break 2 to celebrate for you and i feel so bad
and now it's 09, although bro will be missing again on ur actual birthday since u skipping school (heard from kim) but i know this year's birthday will be an enjoyable one cause past 2 year hasnt been smooth in alot of area for you but from this b'day onwards, ur relationship part i suppose i don't have to worry already! =D

bro's really glad that you never fail to find me when you needed someone to talk to or when you are feeling down. I promise you I'll continue to be the bottle that will bottle up all your unhappiness and sorrows ok? I really see the change in you from this past 3 years, from the very blur and mature shan till the now even more mature and brave shan i would say =D

work hard for ur fyp, strive for all the As for ur daily, OWN everyone is UT!
meetup soon ok?

let me end with our pact
"once bro and sis, we'll always be bro and sis"

happy birthday =)
enjoy this 19 coz next year u will join the TWENTIES CLUB.. HAHA =x

no avenger in the making tonight cause it's my mei b'day!
BUT
my post R copyright, approach mi if u wan to use them. THANKS!

TIME:12.30am

sob, this might be my last few post ppl.. i'm currently in a very high hit rate venue of h1n1, REPUBLIC POLY~ i go there 5 times a week, from 9 - 5.. i'm so dead la~ HAHAHAHAHA.. rp decided to ask all year 1 to rest till next thursday to MINIMIZE spreading.. so i tink they feel tat year 2 and 3 are not human, can continue coming school.. i think those school de staff in charge of all this confirm don know java one, they have make a serious logical error in their "coding".. i feel sad for those staff, IQ + EQ not even 50 i guess

anyway heard from shun, from 2 cases become 7.. than suddenly by now is 9 cases le.. i'm in superb great life danger siol, damn it =.=

closing the school is a thing to be done sooner or later.. i hope they realise delay 1 day means how much danger it will cause to us who are only mortals~

and WONG WEN JIE, plz fucking pass ur TP by 7th july, wid the start of tat stupid napfa program, i need a ride to school, 8.30AM IS MADNESS!! don park ur hse honda type-R downstair ur carpark and put there for display liao!! MAI TU LIAO!!

I want to be the man that make you feel love and secure
I don’t need anyone else because I need you
Even if you ask again, I just want you
I can't turn back now
It will only ever be you from now onwards

TIME:12am

RP got the 1st 2 case of h1n1 le~ sad la.. tat day monday heard the news le wan pack bag zhao~ in the end onli tat few class can all go home~ SIAN.. why i not in the class.. LOL

school forward us some mails on h1n1 cases in our sch.. i found 1 sentence damn lol:
One of the things we noticed from the two discovered A-H1N1 cases at RP yesterday was that rumours started to spread internally among staff and/or affected students before the RP official announcement was made at 12.17pm. We noted several forum threads had begun as early as 10.37am and 10.53am in SGclub and Hardwarezone (22 June 2009), respectively. News spread like wild fire as they say.

LOL~ POWER OF INTERNET MAN.. INTERNET ROXS!~ hardware zone lei! sarpork!!

fitness program for napfa gonna start le.. omfg~ sian dao.......

i can see my grades dropping~ am i losing focus in school?

TIME:3.30pm

happy father day to all the lao pei around~ tks to u all de hardwork outside of home tat's why we can kao pei until so big~ LOL~

most father use actions and lesser love to support the family but as childrens we know it inside our heart =) not celebrating though coz my bro is not around~ my family don celebrate special ocassion if anyone in the family is not around~ lalala

suddenly saw lily allen album in my bro comp so i started listening~ most of her lyrics are really very applicable to our living world and realistic although the song name abit.. erm~ lol.. hook up wid another 2 song call "Not fair" and "Fuck you". No, i'm not scolding u all la, it's really "fuck you"~ as in the song name is fuck you.. FUCK YOU~ HAHAHAHAHA

end here 1st~ will add-on later tonight

TIME:10pm

juz when i thought this weekend when most bros are in tekong, i can have a good rest at home but all errands suddenly keep poping out and i have to go attend to it~ zzz

so my bro went israel ytd night~ was MJ-ing wid superman thus i didnt manage to send him off. he still haven call home till now, my mum's worried =\

actually i wanted to blog here to vent out all my frustrating feelings but onli to realise this is not a private blog and blogging things out might turns thing ugly, i'm in no position to show my emotions ........... whatever la, fuck it

on a happier note, KEONG call ME !! omfg, juz when i'm all frustrated and sad and emo-ing alone, he call me siol~ he's doing great in tekong but he say really is damn shiong~ HAHA, omg la~ hear his voices really make me think no matter wat happen i still have my bros backing me =D

if love is a war, i guess i'm the type of loser that hang myself before the war starts

a heart of gold won't take you all the way
because in my world that's so cold it's hard to keep the will to fight

TIME: 3pm

you have done well in participating in class in the first and second meeting.you have asked some good questions during the class and have given good inputs as well.it is good that you cited specified examples from prior lessons such as perceived quality, brand loyalty, etc to your RJ.

seriously look at this comment, didnt mention anything for me to improve and guess wat grade i get? B

if i've done well with no comment to ask me to improve~ why am i graded B? than how do i get A?

crap

TIME:10.45pm

school's been rather ok the past few days..

i went funan at tues after sch, i totally forget how many years i didnt step into that shopping centre already~ i realise the 3 in 1 fastfood no more already! (KFC + TACO BELL + 1 more) and the crowd there is still the same, no ppl one! i think i saw Z at funan, it's been 3 years. I hope Z is doing well. haiz

BPM UT TODAY~ killer siol, the most confident person was totally unexpected, JANE~ she say till so easy, she better get an A if not........ HAHA~ i tink start sch till now, of all the teams i'm in, today's team is the best so far, i don need to worry about not getting the right solution but next week is the last time we gonna team together~ tat's RP, nothing stay forever =\

FYP is still ok~ coding suck but still doing well~ nothing much to complain~

TIME:12.30am


LMAO~ yes.. half of the 888 brotherhood by now have go to serve the NS wid honor and glory~ and i'm still fucking stuck in RP.. kinda sian~ why didnt i study harder back then? i guess if i have children tat's wat i will always repeat to them.. HAHA

suppose to start sch today after a 2 week holiday, i skipped sch.. eye abit sore + i simply have no mood.. totally vex~ so many things happening in my mind suddenly, all the thinking, analyzing and crap.. =\

keong tml around early noon going in le~ i'm glad he heed my advice and took the 1st step to smth wonderful today wid his family =D
see u 2 weeks later "best captain"


damn fuck up, he went to cut botak today le but he don wan take pic let me post. wasted~ HAHAHAHA

TIME:12am

meet wid keong, yang, nik and mak today to watch taking of pelham 123~ the show nice la but i really hate the part where the camera keep turning in circle FOR NO REASON, almost trigger my migraine -_-...
after movie we head to S21 to eat zhi cha, tom and yun came to join us =D

tat was how i spend my sunday, how's everyone's?

tml is sean and liang an de enlistment date~ take care guys..

than it's left wid 1 more to go~ the BEST CAPTAIN, HAHA.. don wry bro.. don think of it like 2 years of oversea studies, juz survive the 2 week and come back dude.. don be silly =D
mayb everyone's so emo becoz we make it sound so "end of the world" to be enlisted.. HAHA~ i rmb jun last night b4 he go in, he told me "if i die inside, i will float back and sing let u listen" WTH~ as if go in tekong = sure die.. HAHA.. bros! let's not have the wrong mindset man.. =.=

the BEST CAPTAIN have posted a long entries wid full of pictures =.= tml still got part 2, i'm really anticipating wat the .... he's gonna write~ rmb to write abt me hor.. LOL


i lost track when this pic was took


when everyone still have their hair BUT lacking smth


this pic is when we OLDER abit, obvious different onli me actually (coz gold hair, sob)


the big day


rmb i say lacking smth? here comes the nightlife


more night life..........................................................


SUDDENLY GOT ONE BOTAK, FIRST BLOOD =.=


earlier this year


juz taken last week i guess?

photos are indeed the best memories, can cry man~ LOL

now i really wan to cry, not becoz of the pic.. is tml sch start liao
NB CB! !@#$%^&*

TIME:5.30pm

my throat starting to feel the cake le~ i juz sang K wid superman + shun on monday, ytd night me, keong, mak, nik and yang went to sing again at night from 9pm till 3am.. my throat now is =.=

btw there's this restaurant in semb park "ang mo chu" de area famous for their grade 1 to 10 chicken wings, we went to try ytd.. they say till very nice, no gst and no svc charge but when we see the menu of their ala carte item price~ speechless, feel like leaving but we already sit down liao (SOB!)

so we ate 1 dozen of grade 2 wings, 1 pizza and 1 onion ring, total 60+... rating? i don wan to give rating la.. go try urself ppl~ than u will know my feeling. HAHA~ it's at andrews ave btw =)
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edited at 1am

juz when I thought r/s was unrealistic, when i wan to cheat my own feelings.. i realize i cant, feelings are growing stronger each day and I cant control it..

i muz thank my gay buddy for waking me up, but at the same time i might be sorry to him

life's a game, we R all god's pawn

one step at a time.

TIME:11pm

ok! update time~ I'm glad my blog still can maintain the normal viewing rate even though i've not been blogging so regularly nowadays. THANK YOU EVERYONE

everyone who wish me luck for TP, i really appreciate it. i've pass my TP finally =) perfect in circuit and 10 marks for some minor mistakes on the road~ YEA!

1 major issue solved, now i can focus on FYP and job hunting.. yea, don rub ur eye! JOB HUNTING~~ been thinking for afew days, majority of my bros are going into a different stage of life now.

Jun, keong, wen, tom, loong, sean will be occupied by NS stuff, mak gonna start working life very soon.. meeting up will be lesser by ALOT and thus my free time will then be ALOT also, i've decided to put all my crazy r/s thoughts to an end becoz it's unrealistic. Money will be the most realistic thing to me now.

Wen already enlist into police ytd, Jun is enlisting into tekong tml. so sad~ meeting jun in 30 minute times at coffeeshop to see him 1 last time in his curtain hairstyle and eat THE LAST SUPPER wid him b4 he enlist. HAHAHA~ we all really muz say 再见 to 小时候 already~

it's not too late to realise actually.. i do miss the times spend in sec sch esp wid jun jie =\ he sit beside me during sec 3 and 4, we always sing to each other in class, ALWAYS~ and as a result, both our result is always top 10 in class (count from the bottom) but he more cb, N lvl heng heng pass~


TADAH~ let's reminisce Jun de famous curtain hairstyle for the last time becoz tml it will be BOTAK =O
*i've censored the drunkard face if u all notice.

放我一个人生活
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生
彼此留下活口

why didnt i came about this song earlier? =\

TIME:12am

qiu yun b'day celebration at downtown east ytd was pretty successful, the food and everything was pretty nice.. the environment is imba, i thought i at malaysia or smth (inside joke)

ok! grp pic~


i cant blog anything out now.. i'm so stress, excited, gan jiong.. AIYA, MIX FEELING LA =.=

TIME:2am

tues, wed and thursday i didnt do much activity.. having my driving lesson coz 9th june is my 2nd TP.. i don know but i will do my best and pass hopefully.

so why i finally did something i've never done b4 in my life (never go b4 also).. PICNIC at EAST COAST PARK.. normally ppl ask me go picnic i will laugh at them~ but when shiiing tat day call and ask me wan picnic anot i agree straightaway w/o thinking =\ picnic was fun wid superman =)

tks shiiing for making homemade sandwiches, kelvin for cooking fried rice, wj for bringing 2 btl of 1.5 litre homecook plain water -.- and lastly carrie for buying so much stuffs for the picnic to become a success.. ok, i feel bad for not doing anything except eating and freeloading myself with u guys~ i'm so stress in the mind about the coming TP =\

ok~ i tink time to let the picture do the talking =D

the 2 gals keep camwhore so i join in for this if not alot of their pic =x


squeezing his ball still trying to smile -_-


hi, i'm not robert. I'm Mr. afghanistan


grp pic


shiiing de sandwich!


kel's FRIED RICE!


kel, me, wj


camwhore -____-


ka-li~


we juz trying to be funny~


end up tio punish sit infront =.=


the very "loving" fyp team


shiiings!


wj is dao kia


waiting for carrie~ so slow! =x


best pic for the day


dinner~ look like the old zheng fa right? got 1 store at ECP copy zheng fa, the sotong fucking nice and price around 15.20 per pax =D

TIME: 12am

a film avec des amis aujourd'hui polytechnique (Jane, Eileen, et Wendy, Jun Shun), nous voyons la nuit au musée 2
au cours de son film Jun shun chute de lentilles de contact et je crois qu'il a regarder le film avec 1 oeil! mauvaise chose

translated version:
went movie with poly friends today (Jane, Eileen, Wendy and ah shun), we watch night at the museum 2
during movie ah shun rub his eye and drop his contact lens and I think he watch the movie with 1 eye! poor thing~ we try to find optic shop and buy 1 pair of lens but everywhere sell boxes one. HAHA

wendy had to meet fren so she left around 6 =) the rest of us travel to suntec and ate aston.. i tink suntec one nicer than sembawang shop de.. btw at city link, the new XIN WANG TAIWAN is open.. quite crowded~ mayb some kind soul can try and tell me nice anot? haha

ok. last stop we went to fullerton hotel check some stuff and headed home...

i'm so so so so so sorry~ i made afew ppl emo-ing now.. even i'm emo.. life suck man.. i seem to handle everything well on a average basis but love....... is juz too complicated.