The world is evil, I hate the world: how society functions, how materialistic we all are, how judgemental we are, how appearance orientated we all are, how capitalist we have turned out, how sinful we are, how selfish we are, how we destroy our world I reckon God should just kill us all and start the human race again.. No, im not Christian just agnostic.

; Alex Chua ; 1st of December

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TIME:11.10pm

i cannot control anymore! i did it again! i i i i i i i i~~~~~ went to sing K !! x) with mak, nik and yang ytd night at amk =D

i shed a few drops of tears in the KTV when i was singing one song and it was dark so it's ok~ i don think my bro-s notice =x i really buay tahan.. i was singing this song call 关于我们 and i wasnt expecting to see her in the MV so when i suddenly saw her in the MV.. o fuck~ i realise i miss her like crazy and even went to hug the TV =D "陳大發" !!! 我爱你!!!

reach home at 12+ and got pretty emo because in K sing so much emo song com-fi-firm will emo one, went facebook to see her photos and finally slept at 2+..

( i'm really speechless to see that picture in your facebook, you are still the same old " " i know back then and u didnt change at all, i hate myself for why till now you are still the one i cant let go the most? why is this love so deep, so 1-sided, so dark? )

i didnt went to class today and i didnt wan to waste the day so i went to meet mak early in the morning~ brought some ingredient and cook for ourselves to eat.. weather was really bad as it seems like it's gonna rain but really tks to my bro yang for giving me a lift home =)

so tml i'm gonna face reality! back to school after 2 days of 'holiday'! and my morale is rather high now because ..................................



but i'm even more motivated because i can enjoy replaying this video again and again and again and again to see her smile esp the last 3 second! use money also cannot buy one !!! =)




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TIME:11.30pm

ok, I'm not neglecting my blog i swear! i do have a lot of post but most of the time i don have enough courage to publish them and i find it contradicting when people tell me they have private and public blog, i rather not publish my post but hey! at least i wrote my feelings down somewhere =D private blog can be easily found out with high level stalkers living among us~ (E.g. shi ying~ LOL)

how was life? my bro was so sick during the weekend and my dad almost call ambulance to come get him coz he scare is either H1N1 or dengue =.= so here come the 爱的力量！ my bro's gf made him 爱心-lunch + 默默的 company him whole day even though my bro was just sitting at the chair wid the @_@ face.. 爱的力量果然伟大！

saturday night had dinner at northpoint's manhattan fish market coz it was a mini gathering to celebrate wen's 快乐鸟日子.. after dinner went pool-ing at OCC till late and cab home~

HRM lesson was yet another killer! near 400 word RJ + 1 mindmap =.=

i'm dying to sing K for distress.. it's been so long that i haven step into ktv.. ANY TAKERS!

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saw this one yahoo news:

http://ph.news.yahoo.com/abs/20091020/tph-are-you-a-facebook-addict-85c5a6c.html

You are a Facebook addict if...

According to Joanna Lipari, a clinical psychologist at the University of California, Los Angeles who was interviewed for a CNN report, here are some signs that you are addicted to Facebook:

1. You lose sleep over Facebook. When using Facebook becomes a compulsion and you spend entire nights logged on to the site, causing you to become tired the next day.

2. You spend more than an hour a day on Facebook. Lipari said it is difficult to define how much is too much when it comes to Facebook usage, but that an average person need only spend half an hour on the site.

3. You become obsessed with old loves or exes you reconnect with on Facebook.

4. You ignore work in favor of Facebook. This means you do not do your job in order to sneak time on Facebook.

5. The thought of getting off Facebook leaves you in cold sweat. If you try going a day without Facebook and it causes you stress and anxiety, this means you need help.

2 out of 5 bingo for me, so i guess i'm still not so addicted into facebook.. LOL-ed

After helping out my mum with dinner tonight, I really miss working in the kitchen SO much.. i still feel more comfortable in the kitchen compare to doing salesforces.com during my attachment.. am i really gonna work in the IT industry in the future? i think can FML 1st liao!

Carrie ask me if I've go to the universities to chop my place already or not.. thinking of NTU but shld i really further study in IT area? FML

一个我假装没事一直往前
一个我动弹不得伤心欲绝
一个我相信用心会被感应
一个我大喊真心会被欺骗
一个我在社会上朋友一堆
一个我而在房间里画圈圈
我不确定，到底有几个我 住在心里面。





越爱谁 越防备 感觉好像只脆弱的刺猬





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TIME:12am

HR lesson today, the faci was special.. becoz of her i got no 1st break, i break my record this semester by writing a 537 word RJ, i have to do HOMEWORK and submit it b4 2359.. cool siol x)

the chicken rice vendor was blardy attitude~ i buy 2 plate of chicken rice and gave her $10 note, she give me all $1 coin back.. !@#$%^&*()

Never argue with an idiot. They will drag you down to their level, then beat you with experience

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TIME:10.45pm

I have not step out of my house for the past 2 days and conclusion was i realize i got extra cash left in my wallet~ HAHA.. normally my pocket money cannot last me and I still need to draw money during the weekends and i'm quite proud i stay at home for TWO day too.. x)

Honestly I miss you
I miss you like crazy
I´ll wait for you no matter what, I´ll wait for you til the end
I stop to think
you´re the first love to me
the person that taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

Will you ever see what I have always want to tell you

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TIME:1am

freak la.. i think XUE LI is the onli person i know that can MSN convo with me until i laugh till drop down from chair and tio kan by my mother becoz i laugh so freaking loud =.=

plus the topic is so serious yet still can be so funny x)

anyway have some faith in yourself la~ don think so much..

rmb to go die, go die, go die, go die. (PLEASE)

For the benfits of those who don know who is xue li, the pic is below:


Xue li, i took a lot of time to find this picture, the BIGGEST forehead i manage to find is this one liao.. totally resembles u.. HAHAHA

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TIME:12.30 am

today's IT security management module was abit lame.. the way to calculate risk is like so not professional BUT my faci very zai (Y)

fyp meeting tml~ finally got 1st team meeting x)

郑伊健 - 心如刀割

我爱你 可是我说不出口
因为不该搅乱你的梦
你已经 有了你 幸福归宿
凭什么 我还在 这里奢求
哪一个男人不渴望拥有
一份全心全意的温柔
看著你 想著你 心如刀割
我还能做什么

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TIME:10pm

really don't understand why I didnt get the choices for my FYP selection.. now I'm dump to some project related to Npark and it's about thinking of e-marketing methods to attract youth like you and me to go to the park, this is bad because I don even go to the park~ how i get other ppl of my age group to go?!?!

wendy really gave me a cherry vanilla lolipop~ thank you JING JING~ x)

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TIME:11.30pm

ok, skip school today cause i find my hairstyle too boring and spend the whole day thinking what hairstyle to change coz it's so short now so very hard to think.

conclusion: let it grow for 2 or 3 more weeks, shave the side and highlight a damn striking color which is most probably gold! WOOTS~

pic taken during jo's bday is up. FAST!




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TIME:10.15pm

I guess I've attended the best 21st b'day party this year, tks jo. LoL~

Jo de b'day party at costa sand pasir ris ytd night came at the right time for me cos I'm feeling so down recently, the party had both cooked and bbq food + b'day gal still got self-bake muffin lei even though a lot ppl don dare to try at 1st.. HAHA, but not bad! good attempt, taste good too.

there was a lot of left-over food thus we played indian poker to finish all the food, after food finish than change to play heart attack but i quit playing halfway because I think I old liao, sit at floor too long my back very pain =.=

than Jo taught us this game call... erm.. i forgot liao lei.. LOL~ but the forfeit for this game is really extreme la.. i had to crawl in between ppl's leg, ppl gotta smell my armpit and feet, guys kissing guys.. POWER!

last game for the night is indian poker again but forfeit this time is baileys~ bo kik la since it's alchoholic~ i con-fi-firm advantage one. LOL

than most of us cant slp and since we have car so we went to changi village see ah gua~ actually it's already 4am and we thought that most probably don have le but we manage to see afew ah gua~ LOL.. some really look like a guy wid 2 plastic balls at his chest.. !@#$%^&

after that we so headache about where to go than von brought us to pasir ris park de playground, really is eye opener for me siol! the playground so high tech one (compared to other playgrounds) and here come the wtf part, 7 young adults playing "ice and water" at the playground during 5am in the morning -_- plz don count me in the 7 becoz i was onli a spectator,
the 7 players was VON, JING TING, NICK, JUN, WEN, LOONG AND YANG. HAHA

last stop is breakfast at yishun with yang, nik, jun and loong before going home to hibernate!

the feeling of a night spend wid ppl important in my life is great but at the same time make me realise i'm not a sporty person enough, i juz cant bring myself to participate in games because no matter how small the game is, i must win, i cant lose.. if onli i have this mindset in other aspect of my life, that will be great =\

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TIME:10pm

not satisfied, down, angry, depress, stress.

this week's daily grade not up to my expectations=\

fyp is like starting soon only when other teams are like 10% done..

fyp advisor seems like the kind to make ppl life difficult

IEP report to be submitted by 2359 but the supervisor don seems to be replying me anytime soon because i need his clearance before i can upload

fitness program deduction of CE point will be shown soon which means time to go back to talks

medical checkup yet to book

can i die plz?

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TIME:11.15pm

last day of holiday.. GG =.= 5 weeks over like this~ omg.. lol, back to no life routine again =\

didnt want to waste the last day of holiday so went to city hall walk abit wid keong, nik and yang.. was having craving for buffet thus dinner at zhen fa (novena there).. reach there than found out become more ex le, from 18+ become 24! WTF! they style is still the same juz that got free flow drinks, not really worth lei !!

several things need to be done but really no mood to do anything.. shit man, i wan my lappy back! i need to do IEP report! i need to book enlistment medical checkup date! SIAN AR!

alright's here a latest taken picture 1 day before tom enlist into tekong, manage to grab it from yun's FB =D



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TIME:2am

surrogates wid the bros tonight. i don know how to rate it seriously.. lol~ no comments x)

everyone's talking about the singtel taking over the rights to telecast the BPL.. sad la, this could be the end of starhub if they further cant bid for the world cup right.. confirm gg =\

tml is the last day of holiday, hope it wont be wasted x)

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TIME:11pm

MacDonald is kinda lol -_- they give u free cup of coffee every meal purchase (ur meal already got 1 drink liao lei!) for 水桶 like me is no problem la, but a lot of people sure waste tat cup of coffee one, i juz withness 2 this morning who waste tat cup of coffee! confirm karma for them liao~ Jun Ying and Shi Shun x)

attachment shld be end le ba? they sound like they still expect us to do work but today's the last day of work -_-.. new class is out, not bad la.. i kanna 4 day 1 class can save me the trouble to rmb wat class am i am in.. gonna have some old faces who will be in the same class as me =)

surrogate wid the bros tml if everything goes accordingly.

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