;Monday, February 8, 2010
TIME:12.30am
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does anyone know how painful it is to have this kind of feeling, i try to put on a strong front showing people i'm okay, i'm fine, i'm cool, i'm chill.. but the truth is, my tears are already dried up..
people say tears are made up of 1% water and 99% emotion but i guess i've been affected 100% by my emotion, I cant seem to find anymore tears.. yes, i've teared because of you because i know you are worth it and till now, i'm still hoping that one day..... a miracle will happen
there's so so so so so many things i hope i can share with you, but i'm an introvert.. everytime i see u, it reminds me that you already belongs to someone else and instantly i take 10 steps backward.. i believe I'm doing the right thing because it's all for the sake of the 大局着想 but.... what about me?
perhaps both of us are born to be real good actor/actress, you know I'm posting about you and I know u have read all the post that was meant for you but I've never manage to truly know how you truly felt and you look to me like you didn't read a word about any of my post but of course, perhaps this is the only way left so that that we can continue to live in front of each other isnt it?
I'm not emo-ing all of a sudden my dear readers, i've been feeling like this since.......... I've lost track how long I have been feeling like this.. self pwn =.=
when i listen to wedding dress by tae yang, i felt so optimistic at the start:
When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make me feel fine again
I have to keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz if not, we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me
Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now
but the ending became this.....
Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come
The wound, the pain, the hurt, the emptiness, the damage....... I really hate my existence, 老天爷, 快点来收拾我吧..
-Avenger In The Making; Fighting!
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