The world is evil, I hate the world: how society functions, how materialistic we all are, how judgemental we are, how appearance orientated we all are, how capitalist we have turned out, how sinful we are, how selfish we are, how we destroy our world I reckon God should just kill us all and start the human race again.. No, im not Christian just agnostic.

; Alex Chua ; 1st of December

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I suppose everyone have seen touching ads, tv shows, ppl saying: "cherish the people esp your parents/close kin around you while you can before it's too late" and i reckon most ppl, including myself do hope to cherish those around for the like next 5 minute and it's back to "i don't give a damn mode" because for example ur mum might start nagging at you and you'll go "aiya, F it, do wat also tio nag, cherish for wat"

But this time I think I've learnt my lesson. This is the 1st time in my life I thought my mum was really a goner, or to be more exact, in danger of getting a stroke. Unknowingly her weight dropped by 10+ kgs for the past month and she keeps complaining of stiff shoulders and feels there's "something" in her throat, she couldnt eat or do normal activities even till now.

Initially, everyone thought she's juz doing her regular whining since she already has a long term problem with her knee and didnt really pay attention to her complains as she always wants my bro and me to do housechores for her which we both find it irritating but still have to do it no matter what. Let's be frank, how many kids nowadays do housework for their parents? Mopping, do laundry, do shopping (when i say shopping, it's not shopping for your cool gadgets or trendy clothes, I'm talking about getting toilet papers, apple, 10kg rice and raw meats.), do cleaning (the whole house), wash the fans, wash toilet and many many more. But she'll never let us do the cooking no matter how sick she is, because she got the typical housewife thinking that the kitchen belongs to her and her only, lol?

So after afew weeks hearing her whine, I manage to get my mum to see a doc.. the doctor say: "oh, throat infection siol, quite bad" so gave us some sore throat med and antibiotics. WOW, fuck you doc, I wonder how you got your license to see patient. My mum end up couldnt even turn her neck and her hands cant even raise up, it's obviously not sore throat..

And i think she went to see a doc again with my bro this time around and the doc say it seems like a pre-stroke sympton and the doc recommend X-ray is needed to further diagnose.. I think I can skip this part on how I feel because everyone who reads this can go and imagine all the what if-s if this was really happening to your dad or mum. Things got worst till the stage where she couldnt even lie down to sleep due to the extreme pain and was stoning by herself from 2am to the next morning?

But no matter what, results shown was that it was not a pre stroke.. It's smth else.

Seriously Thank God, Thank the Maker, Thank Dua Bei Gong, Thank Guan Ying Ma, Thank all the Deity.

I'll learn to cherish the ones I love, mayb not verbally since I'm not good with words but hopefully with my actions because I'm really freaked out after this lesson. I'm still learning to be a good son, and hopefully a son she can be proud of one day.

Everyone has to leave someday, but we don really know how much time is left, the only thing constant in life is "Changes" so do try not to take things for granted and cherish every things you have in front of you right now. Serious, no joke x)

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