I'm not Christian just Agnostic

2011-08-02T20:48:00.019+08:00

There are so so so so so many things I can share about us.. all the memories, all the jokes and all the conversations we ever had. I really cherish all of them, I do.

Call it "by chance" but do you happen to realize how I have always been patiently waiting to seize the chance to appear the moment once you feel down and lonely when you are having unhappy times or quarrels with the people around you?

I have only come to realize now that after all this time, I was trying so hard to be silly, hoping to get your attention in every single way, to have this wishful thinking you will have affection towards me one day if I stay long enough because I forced myself to believe what you had with him will only be a fairytale.

But after 30 months or maybe even more, I think it's time to wake up from my pathetic thinking because the fact that you guys are still together proves that he really does have a lot more to offer to you and I even think that he might already be the one for you after everything both of you went through together.

I spend every minute wanting to reply to your messages but I stopped because I keep telling myself that it is time to bring my feelings to an end be it torturing or extremely painful for me. Enough of clinging onto you because I could not believe I'm crazy enough to spend the past 30 over months waiting for your love.

I truly don't believe in becoming friends if we are not fated to be lover, I've tried utmost times to be "just a friend" with you but it's just so impossible for me to really be "just friend" with you because my heart wouldnt allow my body to.

So the last thing I hope you can do for me will be to hate me. From now on, please hate me for being such a irresponsible bastard for walking away just like that even though I'm merely a friend to you, hate me because I'm just another asshole with ill intentions who tries to get near you and lastly hate me for been such a pathetic and selfish loser who use such a childish way to part ways with you.

And no matter how I come back to you in the future be it begging you, irritating you or try to talk to you nicely.. Just ignore, scold and push me away because only then will I be able to give you up.

If you ever come across to read this post, I want you to know that you have never left this special place in my heart. I miss you like mad crazy, I exported the old whatsapp conversation that we have and read it over and over again..

这三年来，我一直都第二顺位守着你
我从来没有后悔过，只是有着千分万分的伤感
希望这接近三年来所为你做的你不会忘记
也希望你永远记得有像我这样的一个男人爱着你。

2011-06-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

TIME:10.30pm

Trying my best to plan a Free and Easy tour during Dec. But there are so many uncertainties for me to deal with which turns me off =\ Really hope it will happen.

My bros will all be ORD-ing by this week, most of them are still pondering what they should do next, looking at them gives me an even harder slap in my face to wake up my idea on what to do next, I have taken way too many years to reach my current stage, sucha failure in life, I know. The fact that I work in a office whereby everyone who's going to ORD earlier then me are younger than me depress me even more. The hard truth for wasting my youth playing it away, so that's why I ended up here to pay it all back.

For the 1st time I gotta admit, idolising made me happier but it was all an inception to myself because I don know how to move on in the real world, to face another relationship, I'm still stuck at the back, not wanting myself to move on. Because deep down, I know I want you but I'm not confident because I know there's no way I can be better than your current one.

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2011-05-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

TIME:9pm

been so long since I blog! OMO, busy busy. becoz May has been a month with a lot of long weekend thus I was rather busy until i didnt have time to update!

catch alot of movies, chill with my bros, b'day celebration for Yang, Nik, Shi Ying ,Wen Jie and my dad~

and the sian part has finally come! June and July w/o any public holiday =( feel very sian becoz alot of ppl around me is gonna ORD soon! and i still have a long way to go =.= what to do eh? LLST lor =\

I seriously hope and was planning to have a peaceful time till I ORD but it seems very hard. According to social norms, women tend to be the more gossip type of creatures in the world but I don know why I'm so lucky to be serving NS while meeting so many gossiping ppl creating tons of workplace politics. This totally suck, I cant serve my 2 years in peace.

On a side note, nick and me came out with a theory: "To be successful in life, we must plan to fail! "

Think back about your life, the no. of times your plan that came true VS the no. of times it blew off in the end. shouldnt we juz plan to fail? expecting the worst in everything? than when smth, even if it's the smallest thing that is positive came true, we might be happier.

Sadist, I know. Whatever.

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2011-04-23T14:37:00.002+08:00

TIME:2.45pm

It's your b'day today, I didnt forget about it. It's been 4 years. I've deleted your phone number because it's the best way to not communicate with you since whether you receive my sms will not make any difference anyway.

Happy Birthday to you. Z.

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2011-04-12T20:44:00.002+08:00

TIME:9.30pm

I received my posting and I'm disappointed because I've been posted to a vocation which is like a "sai kang" warrior. I do storemen stuff, clerk stuff but I don do technician stuff which I was taught. I took me weeks to convince myself that staying in OETI was the right choice instead of fighting for my MDC placing and when I finally started loving my technician job, I'm posted to this kind of vocation =\

But the good thing about my current place is that I have plenty of free time and I happen to have a colleague who bought the new MM Lee bibliography book titled "Hard Truth to keep Singapore going"

I grow up in a family whereby my dad tends to be pretty oppose against the government thus I grew up having the same mindset due to the influence. I haven finish reading this book but I'm already amazed by the content I've read so far and how MM Lee actually handle the most difficult situation Singapore have met and his approach to a lot of things.

Realist were the word that was mention time and time again in most of his stories on how he counter problems. He tends to view or represent things as they really are without making much doubts and assumption and yet he can bring our country to such great heights. Other members who tried to give him opinions are often been label as naive even though it sounds convincingly true and worth worrying but his "realism" will always prove those naive people wrong.

His realism is really up there. His thinking and perspective is really very different from other people. I believe he was the right man to lead Singapore after the British colonization because if he really did solved all the issues back them via his Realism perspective, I believe no one will be able to do it.

An inspiring book on this person life story even though I still have doubts on the future of Singapore because more and more issues are surfacing in the society, I wonder how our new leader will solve it.

Will there be a future for us, Singaporeans?

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2011-04-11T19:54:00.003+08:00

TIME:8.20pm

Last friday I had dinner wid Jo, Keong and Yang at Clarke Quay Watami. The food was pretty good but service that day still has alot to improve.

Follow by I had an enjoyable lunch with my bros on Saturday at this restaurant call "The Ship" at shaw centre as a "b'day celebration" for Keong, seriously at our age now, celebrating b'day is really redundant coz i feel that by having a simple meal with afew true frens are the best :)

Went to watch RIO on Saturday too. Even though it looks like a childish cartoon, it was pretty entertaining. Who says soldier cant watch cartoon movie? x)

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2011-04-03T13:59:00.004+08:00

TIME: 6pm

I had a fun kite flying session wid superman last week !

Time didnt really fly but I'm already a 5 month old soldier and tml will be my D-day, the day I will know which camp I will be located for the rest of the 1 year and 8 month of Army life. UNIT POSTING. Please give me a good place. Please.

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2011-03-20T20:01:00.002+08:00

TIME:8.45pm

It's been weeks since I've been feeling very negative, I try to ask myself what went wrong exactly because I get negative easily even over small things but this time, I feel that this "something" in me is really making not just negative but to a depressing state. I started to think whether it's my NS, Friends, Love or my mum's incident but none of it was really hitting until a depress state.

I didnt give up finding the answer in my heart on what exactly went wrong. I manage to find the answer in the end.

Faith. I've lost Faith in something I always hold belief since young. I realize after my mum incident, together with a snowball of negative events happening around me, my Faith towards my God is dropping. I make fun of God, mock how incompetent they are at times and even stopped praying to them now.

And it's depressing me because no matter how shitty and hopeless life was for me for the past 23 years, I always hold Faith in God thinking that they will turn the hardest tide for me no matter what as long as I pray hard enough and truthfully towards them. But whenever I face trouble nowadays, perhaps due to the lost in Faith, I think the worst for anything and everything because I can't find anything positive around me, I've forgotten how it feels to be positive.

And now, I have this feeling my life is more or less coming to an end and this feeling is getting stronger. Is it because I've lost Faith to something I hold since young or I'm in a depression state?

If you read this and is a believer of God, than i guess you can really relate to what I'm writing. If not, it juz look like a load of trash to you.

But I wonder who's still reading this blog anyway?

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2011-03-13T21:25:00.002+08:00

TIME:9.30pm

Ever wonder why are we born into this world when we will die in the end?

The more I try to find my answer, the more saddist I become. I'm having a very negative feeling towards life now, if mother nature were to resign to humanity on 21 Dec 2012. I totally respect her decision because I feel that human are too disgusting, we will never learn our lessons. Only death awaits us. All of us.

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2011-03-07T20:29:00.001+08:00

TIME:8.40pm

Fight for the things you love. Love the things worth fighting for.

Have you found your "thing"?

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2011-03-05T00:03:00.006+08:00

Respect, have you got it yet?

2011-02-18T20:49:00.001+08:00

TIME:9.00pm

There comes a point in your life when you discover and realise who matters; who never will, who once did and wont anymore, and who always will. No matter what happens, you've gotta move on, don’t hang on to the past, cause there’s always a reason why a particular person never made it to your future.

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2011-02-14T20:08:00.002+08:00

TIME:8.10pm

Been a comms tech for near 3 months, my environment have always been air-con lab.

But currently i'm on a short course that interacts wid camp and I had the chance to visit gedong camp. FML if posted there seriously. DUSTY, SAND-Y and DIRTY...

on a side note, Happy Valentines to everyone! =)

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2011-02-10T19:43:00.002+08:00

TIME:8pm

3 more weeks and my life as a trainee in kranji will end.

Truth is I have never expect myself to see a tank in my life but it seems like what i'm learning now involve tanks and I manage to get my chance to enter a tank. No, 3 different tanks to be exact and my 感想 after entering the tank? FML. I suspect the tank is built to discriminate big size ppl =.= hot, stuffy and SMALL. Good experience indeed, please don let me enter a unit which needs me to work in the tank environment *pray*

I feel bad now, I think my lame joke had destroyed the friendship of 2 frens in camp, it is really a fcuking lame joke but it seems like 1 of them took it too seriously. I'm sorry~ sorry~ sorry~ sorry~

I think it's hard to make fren wid people when you're in pes C, BMT is onli 4 weeks and you spilt up tp training institute and meet new people and for another 2 or 3 months of training, you get spilt up and meet new people again in the unit.

so..... does it make sense that time is not enough? or isit my problem? x)

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2011-01-29T10:51:00.002+08:00

TIME:3pm

I rmb juz last year i blogged a post ranting about how my family have our reunion dinner (Wednesday, February 17, 2010):
"i don know about others but reunion dinner for a taoism family is the same throughout and i've been eating it since i'm young till now: braised duck, steam white chicken, 蒜 (So that can count money)，葱 (so that can be smart), 豆干(so that can 做官）, roasted pork, stir-fried sea cucumber with fish maw and pig skin and lastly pig stomach soup with abalone~ STANDARD ONE, FOREVER WONT CHANGE =.= i spend the whole day helping my mum at the kitchen with the bai bai thingy too =\"

But never did i know actually that will be my last time having such a reunion dinner because I will most probably not be able to taste my mother's cooking anymore. She is depressed and frustrated, asking why did we even allow the doctor to save her. No matter how we encourage or reason with her, she is still feeling demotivated.

If I were in her state, I would have said the same thing too. Because from the victim's point of view, I rather die than suffer for the rest of my life w/o the ability to look after myself. But then again, no children or spouse in this world would want to see their loved ones leave them isnt it?

CNY coming in less than 5 days, not happy becoz i got a fucking 24hours guard duty on sunday, and i'm booking in tonight coz tml need to report damn early and mrt don start so early on sunday =\

I've decided to buy a BBerry 9780 becoz life's too bored in camp, at least twitter, FB and msn can entertain me while i'm bored. sadly, i've trade in my nokia 5800.. i'll miss you~

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2011-01-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

TIME:12pm

POC LOH~ been very long since i last blogged. the POC week was quite shiong for me becoz the discipline master there is an @$$ and make our life really difficult + the bunk is dusty X10000 BUT it's all over, finally! =D

block leave week was sorta a resting week for me, since most of my bro-s R in camp, onli manage to meetup wid mak on 1 occasion and we went for yum cha buffet follow by queensway shopping.

during block leave's sunday, i book-in having this very heavy home-sickness feeling in me, quite torturing but tuesday, they announce about STAYING OUT for old privates since there's a new batch coming in. my whole platoon have opt for stay-out except for 8 guys who's staying quite far x) SONG AR~

But i'm still quite sad-ed by the fact that I cant enter MDC (Music Drama Company of SAF) even though I have been selected after my interview, thanks to the ridiculous manpower posting centre for tarnishing my dream. LLST!

T_T

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2010-12-26T21:44:00.002+08:00

TIME:10pm

for the past few years, my bros and I always had xmas party. we didnt had one this year but nontheless we gather at nik house to drink up to our heart's content :D

gonna POC in 2 weeks. which marks near 2 month of completion for this time wasting 2 year. est. 93 more bookout to ORD. LOLOL~

gonna book in tomorrow, shifting camp on this coming friday to POC venue.

at least a break for me so that i don need to face those radio which i'm learning currently =D

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2010-12-19T18:12:00.002+08:00

TIME:6.45pm

life's boring =.=

life now is actually like schooling life, studying 8-5 daily. just that the bad thing is i don get to go home. And we recruits get F upside down quite frequently since it's part of the package when u sign up to "$.@.F".

it's very hard to blog nowadays since I have to write in a very discreet fashion becoz i'm in my recruit phase and I can onli talk about army =\

anyway. my mum will most probably be discharge as soon as this friday, Xmas eve. life will be very very different when she comes back. i cant really imagine how it will be, but it will really be very different. new furniture have to be installed/replace so that her wheelchair will be obstacle-free and alot of safety check need to be done.

But i cant even contribute anything to my family since i'm juz gonna be in camp doing lame shit.

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2010-12-11T22:26:00.001+08:00

TIME:1042pm

POST OUT LO~ i cant post much about the stuff i'm doing now since I might get charge easily.

anyway i had to spend my birthday in tekong, it was damn emo. like seriously. But a group of people manage to cheer me up becoz they actually sms-ed me happy birthday! 感动到max! =) Thank you YU ZHEN! CARRIE! SHINGZ! my BROTHER! my DA SAO! EILEEN! and JUN JIE!

and Thanks again to superman clique and my 888 brothers for the present. I seriously wasnt expecting any present this year. you guys are wonderful x)

i had a meetup wid carrie, keong, shingz and wj ytd for dinner, nik juz nice meet us for K session till 3am and finally yang and jo joined us for supper.

today i had my 1st experience of joining a b'day party in............... MACDONALDS. LOL. wj, carrie, shingz and me totally self-pwn. coz amk had too many macDonalds, we went to the wrong one and had to delay the party. lmao =.= and the star of the party? my gay fyp partner ah shun! HOHO~

这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一句
没关系~

2010-11-28T15:38:00.004+08:00

This coming week will be my last week in Tekong. I admit neglecting this blog for quite sometime since the last post but I really don have enough time outside =\

In summary
the food taste terrible till the extend that I have not complete a full meal inside for the past 3 weeks, I always only manage to eat half a plate and feel like vomiting.

My commanders are all pretty good to us perhaps due to the fact we are pes C.

My bunkmates are overall fun people but we're not very close since it's onli been 3 weeks.

I've finish all my high key event for Tekong! a memorable 2D1N Cat 1 field camp and live range!

Tiff baby hurted her leg while I was away in Tekong, plz recover soon ok?

2010-11-06T21:32:00.004+08:00

i went back to the "uni fair" which RP organize and it was crap -.- not useful at all. I passby a booth name: University of RMIT so i thought it was SIM but it was the real RMIT uni which means I have to go to Australia to study. The person didnt allow me and kok ann to leave, keep asking us to stay and listen to him, so I juz randomly ask him about the course fee and estimated living expenses. His answer turn all of us off immediately -.- $46,000+/-, a year. GG.

ok, since the past few post has been wordy, let's end wid some pic? lol

SNSD's past to present =D

Tiff <3

i wan to print out a Tiffany picture and put it in my wallet, so when i go to tekong, i can hao lian to my bunkmates. LOL x)

2010-10-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

23rd oct was a memorable day, for the past month with so much unfortunate things hitting on me, i manage to release all my stress for a short while on 23rd oct =)

k pop night concert. IT TOTALLY ROCKS EVERYONE'S UNDERWEAR. WOOOOO. just by mentioning 23rd oct makes me totally high again. from a concert where everyone was seated properly to cheer for their idols till everyone stand on their chair and shout and jump and cheer and get fucking high together x)

and just this afternoon, i accompany my bro nicholas for a job interview. he was scouted by a model company. the company's got quite a solid portfolio. this is so cool, i'm gonna have a model fren, male somemore which is 101% gay. LOL

after his interview, I finally had the chance to support/visit Mak at his workplace for dinner. Sarang located at The Central, also known as the official restaurant for K pop night. The drunken pork caught my attention the 1st time i browsed the menu sometime back, so I went ahead to order that to try. IT WAS FUCKING NICE SIOL. MUST TRY ESP FOR SAN ZANG BA(PORK BELLY) LOVERS x)

ok~ annyeong, good bye, adios ppl.

2010-10-15T09:40:00.009+08:00

I didnt have a choice on my NS enlistment date, but I suppose making a choice on whether to include everyone was possible even though it will be difficult to plan but it has been a milestone which most of us had really wished for it to happen asap isnt it?

Nvm about tat because this will onli be 1 insignificant issue which had happened if I were to look back in my life perhaps 1 year later

Ok, I've got more important things in life to focus on now rather than find fault with people.

Army in less than a month with nothing packed and my mum doesnt seems like she's going to be discharged anytime soon and instead condition seems to decline becoz she is having irregular fever now and doctor say it might be lung infection as it's common to be an aftermath problem after complicated operation.

The super bad thing in life is that we cannot fast forward or rewind it and the kind of mental pressure on me now is totally indescribable. I keep telling myself 1 step at a time, but the current situation will onli make me harder to breathe with each step i take.

头痛。。。。。。。

2010-10-11T02:33:00.008+08:00

11 oct

1stly I apologize 4 any typo becoz I am typing on the iPad now which I am nt used to it.

The time now is near 3am, I am sitting outside sgh visitor area now thinking of alot of thing. Anyway I'm here doing hourly check on my mum myself becox the nurse here are all abit too Bo chap.

For the past few days, I was still asking myself if I'm in a bad dream but obviously everything is real. So many things can change to a normal person in 2 weeks, I still can't believe it.

I wan to share this story to the 15-20 of u who's reading this but it's abit hard for me to really start. The whole thing started after my mum and aunt went down to pay the balance for our Taiwan holiday trip, she has decide nt to go becox she felt unwell but keep insisting she does not wan to see a proper doctor so she went to request to see if she could get any compensation while I will join my aunt family to go. When they are leaving, wat I heard from my aunt was she started walking dizzily falling towards 1 side, end up my mum feel tat she might had a stroke and asked my aunt to send her to the hospital, my aunt's family send her to sgh immediately and she was assign to the accident & emer. Dept.

Not knowing the exact problem, she was advised to be warded for observation thus we agreed. They did ECG, x Ray and hell loads of blood test 4 her but couldn't get an answer for her constant complain of chest pain, after 2 day of staying there, suddenly she told us she can't pee + her legs are feeling numb and onli her toe can move a little, but there was still no answer. So the doctor has decided to send her for a MRI scan (spaceship vessel thingy u see in tv) she did the test during noon, and during evening, my mum told us she cant feel or move her leg. The doc come and tell us the MRI initial report looks okay, but thank god another doctor pass by and when she heard my mum saying that she cant feel her legs anymore, that passerby doctor panic all of a sudden and the whole situation became tense, in no more than 10 minutes, a senior specialist came down and started reading all the reports again while those rookie doctor were standing around like watching movie

End up doctor came to tell me from MRI scan, there is a lump of fatal bacteria trap at the throat area which is pressing on her nerves system, she must do an operation tonight or she might become fully paralyze or even worst, death. I asked for the chance of success, he told me unpredictable but all he know is if u do this op, u get a chance to save her life but she might not be able to recover those control she has lost. If u don do, it's just death waiting 4 her. By that time most relatives has came down to look at her, crying and speechless. I didn't really cried at the start be cox relative was around and I didn't want to cry in front of my mum if not she will be more sad. So finally after all the relative left, while I was sitting outside wid my dad, for the 2nd time in my life, i saw him crying and i too, finally started tearing and fearing of all the negative things that will happen.

End up she didn't manage to do her operation at midnight becox they wan to scan more area of her body to see how wide the bacteria has spread and has arrange her operation to be at 6am.but i guess as C class ward patient, the service and care really was not to expectation, a 6am operation end up onli starting at 3pm, juz count at how many hour it's been delayed. totally speechless. Her operation ended around 8pm and was send to ICU for close observation.

i will stop here for awhile and continue next time. coz it's really a long story and thanks to everyone who has been giving me non stop regards, thank you all. =)

2010-10-02T10:07:00.003+08:00

I want to take this opportunity to express my heart felt gratitude to all the frens, brothers and relatives who have been expressing their care and concern to me and my family for the past week. Thank you everyone.

It has been a depressing and difficult week, if onli it was a nightmare but sadly all this is happening for real.

There's still a long way down the road but it seems like I don have enough time since I gotta go army in nov. I don know wat will happen in the near future, I can onli take it 1 day at a time now.

If anyone wants to come and visit, plz sms or call me before hand so i can tell you the exact location.

2010-09-21T19:27:00.006+08:00

TIME: 1.30pm

Youtube-ing all the very long ago videos this few days, I manage to saw this video which has onli both me and yang's fav snsd member singing ang moh song. woots!~

SNSD Seohyun & Tiffany - Sometimes By Britney Spears

SNSD Tiffany singing Bleeding Love(Leona Lewis)

Tiffany's bleeding love is super nice, powerful also. and best part is I can hear her sing for 4 minute in one song. WOOO

and finally i got time to take pic of my 23rd Oct hoot! x)

(Y)

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2010-09-21T17:15:00.004+08:00

TIME:7.30pm

I suppose everyone have seen touching ads, tv shows, ppl saying: "cherish the people esp your parents/close kin around you while you can before it's too late" and i reckon most ppl, including myself do hope to cherish those around for the like next 5 minute and it's back to "i don't give a damn mode" because for example ur mum might start nagging at you and you'll go "aiya, F it, do wat also tio nag, cherish for wat"

But this time I think I've learnt my lesson. This is the 1st time in my life I thought my mum was really a goner, or to be more exact, in danger of getting a stroke. Unknowingly her weight dropped by 10+ kgs for the past month and she keeps complaining of stiff shoulders and feels there's "something" in her throat, she couldnt eat or do normal activities even till now.

Initially, everyone thought she's juz doing her regular whining since she already has a long term problem with her knee and didnt really pay attention to her complains as she always wants my bro and me to do housechores for her which we both find it irritating but still have to do it no matter what. Let's be frank, how many kids nowadays do housework for their parents? Mopping, do laundry, do shopping (when i say shopping, it's not shopping for your cool gadgets or trendy clothes, I'm talking about getting toilet papers, apple, 10kg rice and raw meats.), do cleaning (the whole house), wash the fans, wash toilet and many many more. But she'll never let us do the cooking no matter how sick she is, because she got the typical housewife thinking that the kitchen belongs to her and her only, lol?

So after afew weeks hearing her whine, I manage to get my mum to see a doc.. the doctor say: "oh, throat infection siol, quite bad" so gave us some sore throat med and antibiotics. WOW, fuck you doc, I wonder how you got your license to see patient. My mum end up couldnt even turn her neck and her hands cant even raise up, it's obviously not sore throat..

And i think she went to see a doc again with my bro this time around and the doc say it seems like a pre-stroke sympton and the doc recommend X-ray is needed to further diagnose.. I think I can skip this part on how I feel because everyone who reads this can go and imagine all the what if-s if this was really happening to your dad or mum. Things got worst till the stage where she couldnt even lie down to sleep due to the extreme pain and was stoning by herself from 2am to the next morning?

But no matter what, results shown was that it was not a pre stroke.. It's smth else.

Seriously Thank God, Thank the Maker, Thank Dua Bei Gong, Thank Guan Ying Ma, Thank all the Deity.

I'll learn to cherish the ones I love, mayb not verbally since I'm not good with words but hopefully with my actions because I'm really freaked out after this lesson. I'm still learning to be a good son, and hopefully a son she can be proud of one day.

Everyone has to leave someday, but we don really know how much time is left, the only thing constant in life is "Changes" so do try not to take things for granted and cherish every things you have in front of you right now. Serious, no joke x)

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2010-09-16T20:46:00.007+08:00

TIME:10pm

i wonder if anyone rmb the post where i wrote i finally approach a gal to chat with when working at tpy but was super sian-ed and stopped talking to her when she told me she's attached?

i went back there to work this week for 4 days (tuesday - friday) and WOOOOOO she was still there! x) during tuesday when i was at bus interchange taking bus, she board same bus with me and when i wave hand at her, she rmbs me! my motivation for work shoot up all the way despite I onli slept for 2 hour plus the previous night. -.-

but when we reach work place, because she sorta have been confirmed as full time, she was doing different thing compared to mine and everything back to zero =\

and yes, now for the reason why i onli slept 2 hour plus before the day i work! monday was a celebration for jun and tom's birthday, a simple zi cha dinner at amk.. sounds very normal but come to think of it again, after you R 21 years old, there's really no need to have fanciful celebrations anymore till you reach perhaps 62? (becoz u can finally take out all ur fucking cpf money, HELL YEAH!) so a simple dinner was really great becoz it's not the quality and quantity of the food but the time spend together x)

after dinner, went to sing K box (i think it's the 7th or 8th time i've been to sing K within the past 2 months) sing till 2am =\

before K, we went to KOI to buy a drink each and it's time like time that nick will not fail to bring us laughter, he wanted to act healthy and requested for 0% sugar level (u shld see his jiao face when he order, he like very proud to order 0% since it's healthy) so we just act gong and see who will have the last laugh.. finally get our orders and we nik become more hao lian after trying his own drink becoz he say his one taste not bad at all but all of us started trying each other's milk tea (total of 5 cups) and he seems to forget the other 4 cups are all either 100% or 70% sugar level so when he drink back his one.......... SELF PWN. HAHAHAHA~ WOO

and for those who have watched resident evil, i wondered how you guys feel? no doubt the 3D effects were good, but I feel like I went into the wrong cinema, i thought I was watching L4D the game turned into movie. seriously wtf de disappointing =(

wow, it feels really good to be writing so many paragraph of random things after so long since all my recent post are just korea related =x

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2010-09-13T12:48:00.003+08:00

TIME:1pm

"After a recent broadcast of Fuji TV’s “Sakigake“, Tiffany’s eye-smile has become a popular topic. Tiffany’s trademark killer eye-smile, her doll-like hairstyle, and sharp jaw-line have captured the hearts of many men, even in Japan.

Netizens who have seen the pictures commented,

‘Tiffany’s eye-smile is also very cute’
‘You became prettier after coming to Japan, keke. It seemed fun on stage.’
‘Legendary eye-smile ‘Fany.’

Recently, SNSD has achieved the #2 spot on Oricon charts with their Japanese single, ‘Genie‘."
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You joking me? it's not just "even in Japan", a guy name Alex Chua in Singapore has been captured too~ *faint*

See you on the 23rd! Fany Baby fighting!

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2010-09-12T15:08:00.006+08:00

TIME:3.45pm

I'm f.piss off currently not because you didnt return me the money I've lent but the fact that you totally have no money to return yet you try to act to me like you promise you are gonna return me.

but at the same time you are asking another relative to lend you money, don fucking try to joke with me.

your mother has already pass away, please knock some sense into yourself whether you should continue to be like this. how's your mother going to feel in heaven seeing you like this? How can someone not even 21 years old be owning money to loansharks and other people and all the debts are like thousands or even more? worst still, not because you really need the money and it's all because you are a fucking gambling addict.

I really did not want to write this out but i've really got no place to vent my anger.

I've used my sympathy wrongly this time, fooled by your excellent acting. My mum ask me to take this incident as an act of charity, wat can i do? There's no point in approaching you since I wont get to take my money back.

You better fucking run, because even if I don approach you, all the loansharks you own are going to get you and fucking break your arms and limbs.

And please go else where if you R gonna die, don let people who are concern about you see you in such pitiful state, you have no idea how your brother, grandparents and the aunts are concern about you.

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2010-09-08T16:08:00.002+08:00

TIME:4.40pm

1 good thing about being jobless is I got extra time to do extra thing, thus i went to youtube and calculate Tiffany's solo part in each song and manage to get the results. lmao -.-

oh! - 10 seconds

genie - 15 seconds

RDR - 16 seconds

gee - 10 seconds

Tiffany's solo duration in each song =D now I'm hoping they will sing Genie and RDR on the 23rd!

Assuming I'm so freaking lucky and SNSD sings all 4 songs, than the $258 i'm paying is mainly for this 51 second of Tiffany solo. hell yeah! WOOHOOOOOO

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2010-09-07T13:42:00.003+08:00

TIME:5.30pm

Life is the C between the B and D, this sentence really reflects alot on my progress in 2010 so far till now.

The (C)hoice you make leading to (B)irth or (D)eath.. i think year 2010 is the year I have to make the most decision making choice ever.. I have never make so much choice before in life until 2010, seriously this year is a headache year =.=

after graduation from RP until now, i have plenty of job offering which requires me to choose. no matter what, every choice made has a valuable lesson behind it and i've definitely gain more socio-knowledge compared to before.

the end is finally coming, I'm starting to have those pre-NS feeling since it's finally coming. i'm gonna lose a lot of things when i go in..

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2010-09-04T07:02:00.002+08:00

TIME:7.10am

at first, I was really concerned about the fact that the kpop night ticket being expensive.. but look at this:

picture credit by shi ying's source.

that was the situation at the ticket venue last night, after seeing those pictures it really motivates me all of a sudden. and so, i'm gonna buy the cat 1 $258 ticket IF yang sister manage to buy it!

many thanks to yang's sister, chia kee for Q-ing overnight =) not cat 1, cat 2 i also very song liao.

cant wait to get my spec done, so I can see you clearly on 23rd Oct, Tiff <3

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2010-08-29T15:19:00.002+08:00

TIME:3.30pm

after don know how many decades, i've finally touched a soccer ball this morning x)

despite me been attracted to korean culture, who can ever be compared to him? God-father of idol (Y). LOL!

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2010-08-27T11:35:00.002+08:00

TIME:1pm

I was hoping I have a chance to avoid you, but avoiding you is like trying to avoid the sun, which is impossible.

今まで、私はまだ感じて怒りと悲しみ、あなたのパートナーに愛情を表示しようとする

난 너의 친구가되고 싶지 않아, 난 네 남자 친구가되고 싶어요.

(Somethings are better blogged in foreign language, i merely want to vent out my frustration but I don really want everyone to know.)

There are things that you don’t want to continue, but you are afraid to end. It’s like you don’t want to expect anything, but you’re still willing to wait.

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2010-08-25T13:00:00.005+08:00

TIME:1.30pm

When my bro told me he's gonna get an iPad, i thought he was trying to talk cock with me. But now I'm relishing the prospect to play angry bird on iPad. OMG, it will be damn cool x)

and he asked me to get him a wireless keyboard too, for tat iPad. the keyboard design is cool, very slim.

keyboard hoot! $98~

the iPad with WiFi + 3G (64GB) hoot! $1228~

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2010-08-22T19:55:00.003+08:00

TIME:8.40pm

come to think of it, of all the jobs i've work before, i still enjoy cooking the most in E end.

I started working at a very young age, as early as 14, I've tried working in office, retail, warehouse, kitchen, pub, deliveryman and now my weekend job which is a spacesuit environment. perhaps if you are 60, you will tell me what I've experience so far is just a tip of an iceberg but mind you, i'm only 21 and i've already had an eye-opener amount of work experience, which I'm proud of. x)

the best thing of working in different industry is to meet people from different walk of life and hear different stories from different people.

while emoing today, i just feel that kitchen is the place for me, i miss it, really.

all this pics were taken during manna's last day, the kitchen i've spend 3 years working in.

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2010-08-22T11:38:00.003+08:00

TIME:11.45am

anh nhận ra dân số lớn thứ hai xem blog của tôi là thực sự Việt, tôi không biết làm thế nào các bạn biết blog của tôi nhưng tôi tin rằng nó có thể là vì tôi đã nói về Lee Hyori trên blog của tôi và tôi biết Việt Nam có một nhóm rất lớn Lee Hyori người hâm mộ. làm giúp tôi nhấp vào quảng cáo bên phải, nếu có bất kỳ ok? cảm ơn bạn!

just a simple post for the 2nd largest population following my blog x)

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2010-08-17T19:49:00.003+08:00

TIME:9pm

I enter this blank page since 7:49pm and now it's still empty.

Maybe it will be better if it continues to be blank, nothing but more havoc will be generated if I continue typing.

I seriously hate keong to the max now, why ask me that question all of a sudden in the car that day

GO AND DIE LA YOU! (no offence bro, i still love you. muacks)

now i keep asking myself the unlimited what if questions even though nth's gonna change.

I'll back off so that you can live better

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2010-08-16T21:43:00.003+08:00

TIME:10pm

快乐鸟日子 to you! CARRIE SIEW!

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2010-08-15T06:45:00.003+08:00

TIME:6.30am

Thinking too much again for no reason.

Practically couldnt fall asleep the whole night and now I've to prepare for the 12 hour weekend shift job. FML~

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2010-08-14T13:00:00.003+08:00

TIME:1PM

A little bit of revamp done on my blog. i'm glad my HTML skill isn't rusty yet. HAHA (FYI, best viewed on Mozilla Firefox)

OMFG, I DON WANT TO STAND UNDER YOUR UMBRELLA, I JUST WANT TO CARRY YOUR UMBRELLA FOR YOU AND JUST LET ME BE DRENCH WITH THE RAIN.

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2010-08-12T19:58:00.007+08:00

TIME:8.30pm

Don ask me why but I'm jobless again. FML~

Just when I thought I've been confirmed, it was just another lie by the agency -.-

The more time I waste day by day, the shorter my commitment length will become, the shorter the length, the harder I can find a Temp job. So i guess I will just continue my semi-宅男life till I go serve the nation?

and now the fucking irritating part is about serving the nation, because it's a stepping stone towards my future education and I can't do anything about it. PUI!

but reflecting on my 2 day work during tues and wed, it's quite fruitful actually. It's been donkey years since I've try to have a conversation with a girl(Not bad looking girl to be exact) I have met for the 1st time, saw her on tuesday but didnt have a chance to be near her. wednesday when i enter office, 1st thing i did was act natural and automatically sit beside her, tio pwn by the supervisor when she say i haven sign in at the form and keep my bag in the locker (i was too focus on trying to act natural -.-)

But still I'm quite happy because I took the courage to initiate and had a chat with her, we talked about a lot of things until finally I tried my luck and asked her this question :" So, your BF still in army?" and she answered :"No la, he out of army very long liao."

WAAA.. CCB.. straight away our conversation ended. tio turn off deep deep =\ LOL

Reason for posting this self-pwn story? To remind myself I'm moving on even though it might sound inappropriate or i might meet failures but definitely better than staying on the same spot because the earth doesnt stop spinning because you don wan it to spin.

so Tan Shi Ying, get the story? this is for you. LOL~ I can intro him to you anytime, provided you forget the other him. LOL~

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2010-08-09T13:37:00.002+08:00

TIME:2PM

I'VE COMPLETED STARCRAFT 2! =D

TODAY MARKS THE END OF MY semi-宅男 LIFE, WILL START WORKING FROM TOMORROW, ON A 6 DAY PER WEEK BASIS =(

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2010-08-07T17:47:00.003+08:00

TIME:6pm

Even if you are not a k-pop fanatics, I'm pretty sure you know the singer name BoA, I'm quite impressed with her comeback in Korea. The title song Hurricane Venus is good but I prefer dangerous even more.

Hurricane Venus

Dangerous (She looks pretty with hair down x))

Both track are catchy, not bad..

and I didnt start work today =\ some other new workers were not able to work today so they pushed it backwards.

Just nice so that I can try to complete my Starcraft 2 by tomorrow =D

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2010-08-06T12:15:00.002+08:00

TIME:12.37pm

So~ i'm gonna start my weekend job tml, every saturday 12 hour shift job from 9am to 9pm. which means I will not be able to go out lepak with my bros anymore but certainly we can still drink or supper on saturday nights =D

<3
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2010-07-31T11:10:00.006+08:00

TIME:11.30am

IT'S DO OR DIE FOR YOU TODAY, LAM KUM KEONG. BEST OF LUCK BRO.

I WILL BE WAITING FOR MY $800 SUPPER YO~

i went to keong's FB and saw this "gay phenomenon" and so i print screen-ed it and wan to share with you guys.

why for consecutive 2 wall post, someone else de face appear? eating BUFFET de face somemore.

i'm gonna delete this picture in the next 24 hours before nicholas see it, how will he feel if he see this?!?! haiz..

my heartbeat rise by X1000 per second during 32-33 second in the video (Tiff's KILLER WINK), but immediately during 2:02, my heart was torn into bits and pieces and the world became black and white to me all of a sudden.

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2010-07-27T10:52:00.003+08:00

TIME:11.30am

AYO, I'M BACK~

i almost couldnt go to malaysia during last tuesday! the truth was my alarm clock was suppose to ring during 5am which it didnt but many thanks to my dad who woke up to pee at 5.20am woke me up x)

everything went on smooth and we were on the deluxe SVIP coach to genting! depart at 7am and reach there around 1pm. 1st thing was lunch, the bak kut teh + vinegar pig trotters + wine chicken was super owning. follow by checking in, bowling, early dinner at kfc + sleep for 2 hour before night movie. after movie, me and wj wanted to go and 大杀四方 but luck werent on our side -.- i lost RM 50 while he no win no lose. time pass really fast in the casino =\ went in around 1,2 am and suddenly 6.30am liao, went back to have a bit of rest before breakfast at starbucks and finally time to bus down to KL!

and so, here's the worst part i dislike about this whole trip, the bus down to KL was very unprofessional, the driver simply didnt give a thought about the passengers on the bus, he was like playing initial D trying to drift downhill, the air con on that bus sucks too. CMI!~ lucky the ride is onli abt 45 minutes and we reach our hotel! HOTEL CAPITOL~ (thanks to Joanna for the great tips, capitol is a superb location hotel with around 3-4 shopping centres surrounding it)

KL is abit long to elaborate so mayb juz writing some places i've visited will do.
- Sungei wang mall (ma chiam singapore far east but hell lot more cheaper)
- Green box KTV ( RM39.10 per pax with free buffet dinner + free flow drinks and tidbits) *located in sungei wang*
- Toilet theme restaurant *located in sungei wang*
- A&W!
- Lot 10 mall (very much similar compared to malls in singapore)
- Berjaya times square

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2010-07-19T17:02:00.001+08:00

TIME:5pm

time for a short get-away with superman, will be back on friday.

biong!~

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2010-07-13T23:42:00.004+08:00

TIME:12.15am

today is quite a meaningful day to us members of the 888 brotherhood as we have our last dinner before hang departs to australia on thursday~ wan to take this chance and wish him all the best too, continue to be the shining gem of our gang!

in our hood, he fits the "role model" person perfectly. i think everyone in 888 can be X2 de proud to have a brother like jin hang.. a wise and comedic guy who is very religious at the same time.. a born leader and someone who has never let loose his temper.. 1st and also the only brother in 888 to get promoted from NA to express, 1st to sign on in the SAF and also 1st to become an officer, 1st to go oversea studies which I believe he will be the 1st degree holder in our 888 hood =)

as for dinner, we had a simple steamboat dinner at jun house and also gave jin hang a thumbdrive as a farewell gift for his trip together with a nikon camera whereby jun won in a lucky draw -.- fucking gay guy who anyhow win lucky draw (he won a mini speaker not long ago during a lucky draw too) and not to mention his glorious record during N level, O level and GPA..

here comes the emotional part.. the thumbdrive for jin hang had all the pictures we took from 2006 till recent tabulated together, we played a slide show on those pictures.. while looking at how retarded we were back then as a group and making comment of the picture scenario back then.. i really felt quite 感动(of coz i never touch until i cry but i felt quite 鼻酸) and it really bring back alot of memories..

9 years of friendship and still going strong, i think that's the only thing which i will feel really proud having been living in this world for 22 years.

not to forget, next year this 888 hood will reach it's 10th year anniversary, and all of us will be planning a big jackass party, perhaps a 10 day 10 night carnival to celebrate this memorable event? =D

i'm trying to live life to my fullest each day, but whenever I'm feeling empty, my heart automatically turns towards you. I really need you, hyori.

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2010-07-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

TIME:11pm

Lee Hyori's appearance on SBS Good Sunday's Running Man,hosted by Yoo Jae Suk will put an
end to Hyori's appearance on tv,and she will therefore stop all activities after that.

I cannot take this anymore, feeling furious & intolerable.
However there's nth I can do.
It will be quite a while that I wont be seeing you anymore.
What can I do?
What should I do?
Please, oh please.. I love you.

I really don't know how to face the truth myself now that I won't be able to see new footage of her anymore in the coming months or even years.. The feeling I have now is worst than I failed N level, I don know how to describe how sad I am now. It's like breaking up with a girlfriend, only want to get myself drunk at 1 corner, emo and die. FML

艺能之神！李孝利！
she didnt fail to bring us laughter even though she's going to take a break soon! That's the spirit! FIGHTING!

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2010-07-05T16:45:00.002+08:00

TIME:5.20pm

Painting is no easy chores, it's a pain in E ass =\

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2010-06-29T10:59:00.002+08:00

TIME:12pm

after staring at the screen for 10 minutes, still no idea how to start updating =\

ok, enlistment letter is here though.. Nov 10~ and my brother's ROM date will most probably be on the Nov 27 which kinda sucks for me.. straight away after my 2 week confinement, gonna take photo with a botak head =\

my dad retired all of a sudden, and he is planning to re-paint the whole house but the problem is he isnt hiring any ppl to paint, which means he will teach me and expect me to paint since i'm free. FML. the WHOLE BLARDLY HOUSE =.=

taiwan trip in october, msia trip in july. that's the plan for now~ i need to live life to my fullest before i enlist =\

till then~

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2010-06-21T13:25:00.003+08:00

TIME:2.15pm

Everyone, Hello... From Hyori

100620 01:21

It looks like it's been a while since I wrote an entry here.
After the release of my 4th album, many interrogations rose,
it was frustrating for me and
you must have been curious about these issues at some point .
I've been asking myself whether I should tell you all of it or not,
there were things to take into consideration, and after I figured it out,
time has passed... and it took me some time to talk to you.
It must have been frustrating for you as well, I'm truly sorry about that...
When I was making the album, in the beginning, I received songs
from Bahnus. When we released it, plagiarism issues were raised,
there was something wrong.
I, too, believed everything he told me, there was no way we could know.
The company first received the songs from him, under his name, and
we didn't suspect anything.
But we kept moving forward, and words risen again, suspicion,
artists saying that
he wasn't the original composer of the songs, that he stole them and
claimed these were his.
Finding the original producers of the songs was hard and it took some
time to make sure everything we heard was the truth. We investigated
about him and we found out that the songs were not his.
We know for sure that 2 songs out of the 6 songs that we recorded
are not his, we already contacted the original composers.
About the remaining songs, we couldn't find the original creators but the
company is still looking into it and will take care of this matter.
We will do what we have to and put that behind us, we will take moral
responsibility.
I wanted to release the album soon, it took me a long time to make it
as I wanted to, and I also wanted to promote it
for a long period, until these issues are solved, I can't do that anymore.
The truth is that, for these problems to be solved, a long time is needed.
These matters take time to be put behind.
It's unfortunate but it appears that it will be impossible for me
to lead successful album activities for now.
I'm truly sorry for you who expected more from me and waited for
something else...
I've always been passionate when recording songs for my albums, although
I went through a lot and experienced headaches.
My heart aches, because I couldn't promise you something perfect, I've
been constantly blaming myself.
But instead of being helpless, I feel that it is my responsibility to step up
and to take care of this. It's my responsibilty to handle anything I do well.
For putting you all through this with me, I apologize, once again to all of you.
I want to always show you the best of me.
I'll be working even harder to show you the best of me.
I will show you more, the best.

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heartache seriously.. why must such thing happen for the Queen's much anticipated comeback.. i was hoping for the followup repackage album to come out soon but now she have to end all her album promotion which means I cant even see her on the music show(s) anymore, this totally sucks. =(

Hi Hyori, if you are ever reading this, I know you through the variety show Family Outing around 1 year ago and I fall in love madly with you ever since after that, I totally had no idea you were a Korea Diva, I was attracted to your outstanding charisma and natural beauty. I can even proudly declare that I've watch every subbed video which consist of you in youtube. I even skipped school just to spend more time watching video of you at home =D You can say that I eat, sleep, breath, think of you on a 24 hours and 7 days routine.

Like any other fans, I was anticipating for your comeback album and placed order immediately when it was released, even when I saw reports that your songs were involve in plagiarism issue, I wasnt worried at all, because what you sang totally pwn those original version's singer. I think they should thank you instead because you sang it so well, so perfect, so original.

Since we cant turn back time, you even choose to shoulder the responsibility even when it's not directly your fault, you've already earned our respect, please don over-work yourself because we want to see more of you and I cant wait to see you reunite with your Nation's Sibling MC Yoo on a brand new variety show again! You are perfect in my heart.

이효리 누나, FIGHTING!

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2010-06-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

TIME:11pm

World Cup have started quite long ago, what was your fav match of all to now? I think the N.korea VS Brazil match was totally exciting, the rest seems life-less and not entertaining at all..

According to report, it seems like Tiffany are having issues with her throat and she is staying in the hospital now. Since I'm supporting her temporarily, I hope she can recover a.s.a.p because she is a singer and the throat is her asset, please don damage it!

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Tiffany fighting!

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2010-06-12T12:48:00.007+08:00

TIME:1.30pm

yuki yaki + karate kid with nik and jun ytd at marina squre.. i felt like a light bulb between nik and jun.. nik even wanted to switch seat with me in the cinema coz jun was beside me but after i exposed him he refused and was "angry" but after awhile even though he cant sit beside jun, he purposely perform magic for us (actually is jun only) to see.. and the magic was totally crap -.-

seriously i think both of them will make a good couple, provided one of them is female, of coz.

Your words were so sweet that I didn't realize you were playing me
The stories regarding you and other men
The stories regarding your behavior
I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't heard a thing
I am a fool with no pride, blinded by love
The fact that I am a toy which you played and threw away
Makes my feeling unbearable
I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown
I wanted to stop this for the 101-th times
but I just keep going back to you knowing that this is wrong
If you had just told me honestly that you got someone else or that you hated me
Then I wouldn’t have hated you to death
I should force myself to erase you. And I really should do so since you abandoned me

It's really been too long, so long that I have missed a lot of chances and people who have passby me.
Instead of being a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love.
I will be a loner who will learn to love all over again.

Such a serious post but I'm gonna end with something stupid, I shall start with loving hyori then! <3

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2010-06-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

TIME:11.30pm

went to sing K on monday at cine.. i did booking at 4pm but when i reach they were still full.. so they let us enter this 30 pax VIP ktv room which have a pool table inside somemore.. and erm.. did i mention onli 4 person went to sing?

LOL.. SHOIK SIA~ scream linkin park sound like no tml because the room very big, the echo/effect very zai! (Y)

after singing went to eat..... korean bbq again -.- this time around is in spore one (at Basement 1, Far East) ok, basically the beef is uber owning, other than tat is really average and it's damage is quite high (Average $35 - $40 per pax if you eat BBQ)

ok. so everyday if i don go out, most probably I'll be at home youtubing. I didnt pay much attention to SNSD until recently since yang are suddenly into them, i was curious too.. so i'm stuck to their series now.. ppl who R bored can really watch this series to kill time (Hello Baby, Horror Movie Making Factory) not bad not bad~

and at the same time, i found a temporary new love becoz Hyori had stopped all her activities in Korea, I'll still be faithful to you Hyori <3

just tat for now, it's her, Tiffany of SNSD =D

side view pic is enough, if front view.. most of the guys viewer might nose bleed on the spot x)

P.S. I still love Hyori VERY VERY much.

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2010-06-03T16:36:00.002+08:00

TIME:5pm

a peaceful week so far. my pes status is finally out after a long delay.. now i guess the enlistment letter shld be in the process of printing and will be in my letter box soon..

emo, damn emo.. emo about the fact that another bro will be going into NS tml.. after this bro go in, it's left with me and Mr. Himbo. =\

damn, this is really a sign of aging. (not forgetting the fact we are all 老兵！)

all the best to you bro. see you 2 weeks later, fighting!

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2010-05-30T13:27:00.003+08:00

TIME:2pm

a pretty sinful trip to JB ytd.. meetup with the bros around 11 and took bus 950 from wdls bus interchange to custom and realize that msia custom already renovate le, now it's juz a 5 minute walk to directly reach city square.

1st stop: LUNCH! at kim gary restaurant.. food was... ok lor, edible.. there was a gal walkin around in the restaurant but she wasnt in waiter uniform so we were wondering what she is doing or rather we hope she come to our table too because 她的隆沟太吸引我们了，间直是buay tahan, WOO.. LOL~ but my karma came shortly -.- i ate mix grill with curry mix swiss cheese.. there was 3 kind of curry to choose from: supreme curry, pineapple curry and coconut curry.. i still ask the waiter which one not so hot and he told me pineapple curry so i choose tat one.. end up yang and nik's superme curry and mak's coconut curry wasnt the hottest but mine was fcuking imba de hot.. WTF~ pwn =.=

walk around city square and cabbed to mak's place to put bag and enjoy air con for awhile.. but there was thunder rain and each time there's a thunder, the house confirm power failure -.- end up du lan go living room nua..

2nd stop: JUSCO! saw A&W there and nik totally got high and keep saying he wan to eat.. wtf -.- didnt chap him and found a place selling korean BBQ.. never care so much and went up to eat.. I TOTALLY LOVE TAT PLACE <3 it makes me feel like i was 2 step closer to lee hyo ri.. traditional seats with authentic BBQ.. the beef was totally like those beef u will drool when you watch on TV, red fresh meat with clear white fats and the pork belly is omfg.. i don know how to describe seriously.. ordered a bottle of soju too and best part 5 person ate for est. 300 ringgit onli, there was like 10 side dish which include ginseng chic soup, kimchi soup, golden steam egg. WOOTS! $26 per person. SHOIK!

after dinner head back to A&W -.- ice cream waffle~ head back to mak hse and was getting tired + a bit bored.. so last minute decision we head back to singapore (suppose to overnight and have dim sum this morning).. wanted to continue to go nik house to drink drank drunk BUT someone BUAY STEADY.. wan to SLEEP.. =\

the chopstick was freakin hard to use x)

o.o

FOOD

=D

the lighting was beautiful.. i don know isit my eye or wat.. can u see a green lighted figure in this picture? or am i seeing things. hmm

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2010-05-27T18:27:00.003+08:00

TIME:6.24pm

I really didnt want to do this, but i think we need to knock some sense into him, seriously.. if not, an innocent young girl would get harm by him, he really muz control..

plz be responsible. BRO.

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2010-05-20T23:26:00.005+08:00

TIME:12am

Everyday I tell myself that today shall be the last day I'm going to view your profile on FaceBook. But everyday I just keep going back w/o realising.. I'm really bless that you have become sort of an active FB user and have been adding photos regularly, at least I know you are doing well indirectly.

I'm wondering if I ever crossed your mind, because for me it happens all the time without fail.

I can't stop myself from looking at your photo and think what if.. what if.. and what if..

What if ...

If I leave this world 1 day, will you shed your tears for me?

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2010-05-18T00:31:00.005+08:00

TIME:1am

had 1 of my most fulfiling and busy weekend last week.. shiiing de 告别青春仪式 + my 2 bro's b'day celebration at 12 element..

shiiing party was the kind of 21 b'day celebration which made me think back of my 21 b'day where frens from different walk of life come tgt =D spoiler part was after the singing of b'day song, some ppl throw water bomb from upstair and was trying to cause some trouble but after 2 bomb, around 12 pairs of eye were staring upstair and we manage to end this chaos x)

12 element was woah~ tribute to both my bro for the celebration as it made a really big pocket in their wallet i suppose.. 4 btl of martel plus 1 tower of beer, damage $700 =\ but 最重要是开心就好！ and i suppose everyone there did enjoy! =D

jun was super gay tonight and called for a gathering at coffee bean, since he so emo me, yang and nicholas went down to pei him, end up after the heart to heart session, i guess me, yang and nicholas will be emo-ing while jun is wet dreaming i suppose =(

plz don't keep smelling ur mattress and do dirty thing jun.. refrain yourself x)

IMYBICTYAIMMM

=(

anyway over due pics taken on saturday.. 12 element de pic don have me coz my batt died halfway =\ so yang, plz post asap on ur FB, kao u le!

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2010-05-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

TIME:9.30pm

I think this band manage to find very good music producer, not a big fan of their vocal but this song definitely have the same catchy-ness compared to sorry sorry...

and the latest music video i posted featuring lee hyori is damn power seriously, even background music also human voice sing one (Y) view 25 sec part to see!

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2010-05-15T12:16:00.000+08:00

TIME:12.16pm

NICE!

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2010-05-12T21:20:00.008+08:00

TIME:11pm

yesterday, 11 May officially conclude the end of my polytechnic life. Mixed emotion going on the whole night, to feel happy or sad doesnt matters anymore because it's over, really over.

let this be a post of gratitude for me to express my thanks to the following people and credits to this following bunch of great friends I've made throughout my 3 year journey =)

People to thank (most are faci(s)):

Mr. Ong Chin Huat - He was like a father to me, gave me loads of priceless advice and he definitely was the key to why I manage to survive RP for 3 fucking years.

Ms. Mandy Low - if Huat was like my father, she's gonna be my mum then! she cares so much and even helped me to appeal for diploma change to Events Management during year 1 when she saw me reflected smth in my RJ related to the course I really wanted to study. First faci ever to give me straight daily grade As also.

Ms. Faith Ong - She's more like a friend to me and she taught me the skill of writing RJ which when I was still a rookie in year 1, tks Faith!

Ms. Yap Woan Leng - I was super lucky to have her as my Java Faci. I'm not any where near a B+ student for Java but under her, I manage to soar to a B+ module grade for Java.. tks to her 10/16 As that she gave me for daily grade, really.

Mr. Aninda Kanti Sen - Not close to me at all because he's a man with few words but popout some cold joke at times -.- but he gave me 14/14 As for daily grade so his name will automatically appear in my thank you list for sure, thank you sir!

Mr. Jimmy Goh - my FYP 1 advisor, a patience man with very good temper and gives very good guidance, my whole team seriously deserve an A for FYP but thanks to some jackass accessor, all we got was C+ and C.. I feel really sorry towards him because he really expect good grades from us.

Mr. Ngiam Kee Jang - If someone from SIT were to tell me they don't know him, I will really laugh at them damn hard. Touted as the "worst nightmare" you can ever meet in school, this man is totally like an army officer with 101% discipline but after a few weeks of guidance under him, he really is a good faci who can really teach with no forgetting PBL. salutes man. LOL

Mr. Loo Poh Kok - First impression of him, nerdy faci. But later we realize he is a super "dua liap" figure in the school of IT, his class is slack and relax mode one but no matter what he sure can make you leave the class with knowledge or at least know the keypoint to the lesson even if you don listen whole day, super zai (Y)

Mr. Lee Yow Jin - Just when the whole FYP team think we gonna failed FYP 2, this man is no joke and we got A and B+ for FYP 2. *claps*

Ms. Kimberly WEEEEEEEEEE - I think among all the faci(s) I've listed, she's the only one who will entertain me and she's one of the rare few who will ask me "jia ba buay" before I ask them. LOL~ I excel in her class naturally because she's my "jia ba buay" kaki! hoho~

a note of advice for those ppl who were searching the above faci's name and manage to come to my blog, they are really damn good faci(s) so if you have them in your class, I can gurantee you 14 out of 16 As will be yours, just do more work and outshine in class, simple as that!

next would be those Peeps that's even worth for me to mention in my blog! ( 排名不分先后！)

W14M: HUI SHAN! WENDY! SHEENA! JASVIN! SALOME! AHMAD! CHRIS! WENE! BETTY! EE WEN! KIM! DAVID!

W34R: XUE LI aka rihanna aka luo han fish! CHERYL! RYAN! LORENZO! ABI! MANN! VINOD! KIT! HIDAYAH! MAJELLA! KIN FOONG! BEN! HAFIZAH!

W64N: WJ! KELVIN! YU ZHEN! PARRY! ANDREW! JOYCE! ROSEBEL! JOYCELY! KAYATHREE! WAN TING!

W65G: SHUN! EILEEN! JANE! KOK ANN! SIEW CHEN! JIMMY! JEROME!

THE GROUPLESS: WENDY! SEBAS! YA FENG! ACE! AMEERA! CELESTINE! ANDREA! ANGELA! CORENE! MEI YU! KE YING! ELIJAH! LI PING! MELISSA! JOANN! MOON! NICOLE! PIN PIN! RACHEL! YI RU!

that sums up pretty much all the people!

.................................................................................................

*psst!* stop finding liao, you are here -> CARRIE SIEW LAI YIN! and TAN SHI YING!

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2010-05-08T02:04:00.001+08:00

TIME:2am

Hey~

and again, prowling around your place.

It feels real intolerable. I can not take this, anymore.

However, there is nothing I can do. I ran out of time, to turn you back.

It's all over, nothing could be done, anymore.

Ouuuuuu, Oh.

You pushed me away with your very hands.

Once were so wanted by me, what can I do? What should I do?

I no longer have your~ breath here with me, but I am still loving you.

What can I do? What should I do?

Please, oh please. Come back.

You float~ in my mind, keep floating in my mind.

I can not hold, your hands like I used to do.

I'm so into you, can't stop reminicing.

This is the song, that can grab ahold of you.

Ohhhhh, ho~.

You pushed me away with your very hands.

Once were so wanted by me, what can I do? What should I do?

I no longer have your~ breath here with me, but I am still loving you.

What can I do? What should I do?

With the way you used to look into my eyes,

please turn back to me and just fill my heart,

and could you please tell me, that you still love me ? (Yeah)

You pushed me away with your very hands.

Once were so wanted by me, what can I do? What should I do?

I no longer have your~ breath here with me, but I am still loving you.

What can I do? What should I do? Oh~

Please, oh please..

I love you.

credits

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2010-05-02T14:29:00.002+08:00

TIME:3pm

ok, another video to share but it's not lee hyo-ri this time around, more for tatoo enthusiast..

http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=3&p=20&v=313

actually this series of show by clicknetwork is quite educational for those who wants to know more about tatoo. and this episode i'm focusing on is actually removal and covering of tattoo.

tattoo is not smth u browse on the sketchbook and "anyhow choose 1" to be drawn on your body (at least not to me) i've been wanting a significant tattoo since i was young.. and i spend a lot of time thinkin what is the tattoo i shld really get?

1st one: i don know how to call this body part in english -.- i wan to write 2 word at the left side of my lower 腰部.. and "无悔" is the word i wanna write.

reason: i always believe in the theory "learn from mistakes or past lessons" tattoo-ing is a painful process and this 2 word will serve as a self reminder for me to always have "no regrets" no matter what I have to choose/do/decide in my life.

2nd one i will draw: my zodiac at my right shoulder/arm and this dragon tattoo MUST be one WITHOUT the eye..

reason: Dragon (in my opinion) is something mystic and often shows power and authority which strikes fear to ppl at 1st sight and why do i wan one without the eye? becoz the pair of eye for tat dragon will be my eyes. yes, very silly and funny for some of you but i wan to learn to strike fear in people when they look at me because i believe ppl in fear will show their trueselves, this world has too many masked ppl seriously.

and i think by the time u read the above paragraph, 3 words is already popping out in ur mind: " chao ah beng". Fine, stereotypers -.-

last one: my wife's name over my left chest.

reason: self-pwn. at least my wife will know i cant go hanky panky outside becoz other women see the name at my left chest will reject me liao. LOL. no laa~~ getting your wife's name over ur left chest is simple enough, i think no need to explain le ba? unless ur EQ + IQ less than 50 than come MSN talk to me, i tell u the answer. LOL

cant wait to have my tattoo drawn x) 2 years! juz tahan for 2 more years than it wont be words that you guys will be seeing, it will be pictures! i promise!

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2010-05-02T10:46:00.003+08:00

TIME:11 am

source;

iron man 2 was a cool show even though the story is a little bit too draggy, for those who haven watch the show, there's actually another scene after the cinematics so be sure to stay all the way till then to see the cinematics x)

it's frustrating to think sometime that why am i born with migraine but others are born well human beings but i guess i shldnt complain so much becoz from another view, there are even more misfortunate ppl than me, but i really hate my migraine, i vomited at keong hse ytd but i manage to "hug the toiletbowl" juz in time to prevent havoc in his hse x)

reach-ed home, round 2 of "hug the toiletbowl" began~ fcuk man _l_

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2010-04-30T19:43:00.001+08:00

TIME:7.46pm

well, hyori didnt get number 1 this week but i believe in her =)

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2010-04-27T20:04:00.003+08:00

TIME:8.30pm

happy and sad.

happy that she manage to get into NYP so she doesnt have to travel far far away to tampines =) and i'm sure she will be able to do well ^^

sad, having that indescribe-able feeling again.. tearing, aching and forcing myself not to do anything.

mayb it's because army is coming too and looking at keong's "case" makes me more eager to want to take action but i really cant. i'm someone who has been rejected before and she's attach now. i got no rights.

what can I do, what should I do.

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2010-04-23T17:34:00.006+08:00

TIME:7pm

someone special to me all this while is having her birthday today..

it's been 3 years but it feels like yesterday to me like i'm just the same old fool who is waiting for you almost every morning at boon keng station juz wanting to have the chance to walk to school with you.

when I was with keong and the rest ytd night, this qns pop-ed out suddenly "if you can return to any point of your life, where and when will it be?" and i said: "secondary school." main reason is i wanna enjoy sec sch life again, the fun and the stress-free life is what i want..

would i wan to fail N level and go back to ITE again? despite how i've been look down when i entered ITE, i would say i wanna go ITE again.. and i wan to go back to balestier ITE no matter what. to get hurt again and suffer for another 3 years if i still cant fight for the chance to be with her? i don care if that happens again actually, i juz wan to spend those simple times together again even if nothing special is gonna happen between us.

been able to see the person you love everyday or at least spend sometime with her is better than nth. am i right? keong, u answer me. yang also, answer me~ and mak, answer me.. right?!?! i'm damn right and i know that.... i know!

finally have the courage to communicate with u again, after 3 year. i shld feel satisfied i guess? you already have the special one in your life. i'm not really happy but i guess i shld learn from those tv series: "i wish you and him the very best from the bottom of my heart."

the conversation sound like a hi bye fren conversation, it's not that i am at lost of words to chat with you, i have too much that i wan to tell you. i cant.

Happy birthday Z.

ps. i'm writing this entry as a diary writing mood, she's not a blog viewer of mine so nth's gonna change from here. i'm still me, the artificial tiko and lame me that u see when i'm in person.

and so~ life goes on...

and happy birthday to GLEN and SU LING too. why so many ppl b'day today?!?!

i had lunch at this super nice place which i will give a 4/5.. cant rmb the restaurant name but it's at northpoint 2nd floor de old building beside manhattan fish market, they serve really nice food.. i wont advise you to eat with your frens but your family instead.. and don eat their ala carte rice, noodles.. order those zi cha items + hong kong dim sum.. really very nice. (Y)

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘
伤心太伤

那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问
想念的
想念的
想念的你
怎么样................

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2010-04-23T16:42:00.001+08:00

TIME:4.45pm

2 word: number ONE.

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2010-04-18T13:06:00.002+08:00

TIME:2.10pm

it's been so long since i do a written lengthy post so let me try to write as many as i can today ok? x)

was chatting with yang the other day and we both agree that tw might be in a crisis? their 偶像剧 is getting more beh kan, their variety show standard are dropping too which left both of us to have nth to watch and had to find new alternatives.

as i'm working now + both lappy and desktop spoiled, i don really have time to watch 偶像剧but i still watching some variety show and this series is really super lol and i'm sure it can keep u very entertained, the show name is "muhandojeon" which means infinity challenge, a korea variety show and trust me, it's super funny. just go to youtube and search "muhandojeon sub" and you will be able to find alot of epi.

i wont say i have become a kpop fan because when ppl say i'm into kpop, i don feel good coz i'm not -.- i'm just into hyori and korea variety show =D

how's everyone's life now i wonder? for me, working life still isnt so great to me.. the environment and people are ok but i just don have the right feeling when i'm there which i cant explain why too.. it's the same feeling when i work at miyabi last time.. cant find the sense of belonging there =\

oversea trips with the bros is getting very confusing becoz everyone have different objective in the coming trip.. just cant decide where and when =.= lol~

ok, i wanted to write more but time for MJ. ciaos ppl

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2010-04-15T19:58:00.004+08:00

TIME:8pm

ytd was a scary experience, 1st time i'm taking "sleeping pills".. i had a med from SGH which have to be taken long term to control my migraine and they told me to eat 2 before slping and the nurse say if can eat earlier, will make u sleepy. so i gey kiang went to eat the 2 pills around 6.30pm and lucky i was gey kiang -.- i slept from 7.45 till this morning 7am.. omfg, no wake up in between or what so ever, that med is damn scary because no matter how sleeping i am in the past, i will still wake up halfway but ytd was total KO =.=

nvm that~ cause H-Y-O R-I is back! my god, really is oh my god de god~ stunning performances on her 1st comeback, by the end of the video, my face is already sticking onto the monitor already and i admit i drool~ PERFECT~ she's the queen <3

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2010-04-14T16:16:00.002+08:00

TIME:5.30pm

i was trying to recall.. and i really recall so damn badly.. the last CD i use money to buy was i think..... a band call FIVE (they re-sing "we will rock u" mashup with queen) and i think i brought it when i was sec 1 or 2 -.-

so now, i'm gonna buy an original CD once again! my queen has release her album, i'm listening to it on kuwo now but i'm still gonna buy 1 even if i can DL it. i actually have plans to buy 10 to show my support to her but the other 9 CDs will look redundunt -.- give other ppl they also don know how to appreciate =\

I'm Back (3/5)
Love Sign (ft. Sang Chu (Mighty Mouth)) (4/5)
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang (ft. Ceejay of Freshboyz) (6/5)
Feel The Same (5/5)
Bring It Back (ft. Bekah (After School) and Ji Yoon (4Minute)) (6/5)
Highlight (ft. Bizzy) (2/5)
그네 (Swing) (ft. Gary of Leessang) (5/5)
Scandal (3/5)
100 Percent (2/5)
Want Me Back (4/5)
How Did We Get (Duet with Dae Sung from Big Bang) (4/5)
So Cold (2.5/5)
Get 2 Know (ft. Double K) (4/5)
MEMORY (ft. Bizzy) (4/5)

i've given a rating based on my own feeling after listening, not bad really, more than half the album is worth listening so it's no wonder why it was delayed and delayed and delayed again and again! <3

i didnt work today because i had to go SGH for a checkup and i think the doctor is very ignorant. not everyone who go checkup are trying to fake things seriously, i juz wan my migraine to get well too but it's impossible~ well, i think i'm gonna be a pes BP so when i get into tekong and if anything happens to me, i make sure she pays!

but i'm really amazed by SGH's business process.. i think they BPMN diagram must be damn zai, i travel there need 1 hour 15 minute (train to tiong bahru then cab over) but the overall time i spend consulting and taking my med is only 25 - 35 minute (Y) their biz process is super zai and i wonder how much tax payer de money have they spend to make it till so zai. LOL

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2010-04-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

TIME:11.30pm

to be frank, I haven give up on this blog but it's just that both my lappy and desktop has already died and I can onli use my bro's comp when he's out.. another reason being is my daily routine really is the same, no point me bloggin about the customers i speak with everyday too coz i don think anyone would want to read it x)

life is boring as of currently i would say, i love hyori still and she will be coming back on the 15th, cant wait seriously.

and i must wait till end of april than i can get my pay.. so freaking long =.= may will be a month to bleed coz got 5 certified babies out there who will be celebrating their b'day! i don mind spending the money since i already have my salaries but wat is impt is the time spend together must be (Y)..

shi ying is a home party, mak is an ECP bbq party, yang and nik i hope is go to 12th element to drink till we drop and wj-s i got no idea yet but all i can see from this party would be 4 letter -.- F A T S .... omg x)

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2010-04-04T00:03:00.005+08:00

TIME:12am

keong celebrated his 22nd advance b'day tonight at his hse.. great food, great fun, great ppl and great host.. main reason i'm posting is because of this pic, i like it alot personally (Y)

band hero is damn fun x) it's addictive and would definitely be better if there's more pop song (Y)

ytd night me, yang, jun went over to nik hse to drink and yang brought the present we brought for him 2 years ago to nik hse to open for us to drink.. damn solid i would say.. rare brand in singapore and definitely it's a good liquor, all of us manage to get high after drinking for awhile, very long don have this feeling liao =D ok, main reason i'm saying this is because jun drank with us too! woohooo

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2010-04-02T00:39:00.002+08:00

TIME:12.41am

MY QUEEN HAS RELEASED HER 1ST TEASER TRACK! DAMN JEALOUS AT THAT CLOWN WHO HELP HER WEAR THE RED KILLER HEELS!!

tml is good friday! means four day week for me this week, next week already request friday cannot go work coz i going RP to buy graduation robe and next next week i also work 4 day coz appointment at SGH on wed. HOHO~ shoikness!

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2010-03-28T13:32:00.003+08:00

TIME:1.40pm

http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=3&p=20&v=306

this is so damn bloody cool, gonna get one after i ORD.

Hyori's teaser MV will release tml, shoik!

the blanket is damn lucky, can i be that blanket? =\

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2010-03-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

TIME:9.08pm

i think i just received the worst call today as a telemarketer.. this man call and asked me what i have to offer when i've already attach a form for him to read -.- next he kpkb saying he is already at retiree age and he wan free gift plus discounts for his ONE year package (one year is the cheapest package which cost 58.85) i told him 58.85 was the lowest we can go already and he started calling me to talk to my supervisor, manager, management to give him discount plus gift.

super irritating, cheapskate dao~~~ i think i can call more ppl w/o talking to him, i didnt even bother to reply to him already and he could still continue to talk for 10 minute, NON stop.. so i started pacifying him by say okok, i will talk to management, okok... he ma chiam never hear me and continue talking....... another 5 minutes gone -.-

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2010-03-24T13:44:00.003+08:00

TIME: 2pm

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Tuesday, 23 March 2010 04:58

NEWS: According to Melon, Lee Hyori's 4th album will be released next Friday, April 2nd.

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Tuesday, 23 March 2010 10:33

NEWS: The music world's "Dream Partners" are collaborating once again. Cha Eun Taec is participating in the directing of Lee Hyori's new music video. You might not know his name, but you must know his works like Hyori's "Anymotion" and "U-Go-Girl" music videos. He also directed Big Bang's "Lies", "Haru Haru (Day by Day)" and BoA's "Eat You Up" MVs.

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Wednesday, 24 March 2010 05:47

NEWS: Top star Lee Hyori plans to return to the stage in the third week of April.

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2010-03-24T00:15:00.002+08:00

I'm always 1 mark lesser to move on to the next level.

176 for PSLE when 177 was meant to be express stream.

11 points for N level when 10 points means sec 5 O level to me.

3.4 GPA in ITE when 3.5 means shun shun to poly for me.

and now estimate of 3.446 for my final GPA when 3.5 means I'm getting into a fucking university.

I'm already numb, I am really fucking numb. This is my life, I cant deny it no matter how hard I try, I guess i'm not born to be an elite, sad.

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2010-03-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

TIME:9pm

so.. i started my work as a telemarketer.. sure i waste a lot of saliva everyday but i actually quite enjoy the work.. no one bother about you, lunch whatever time you want, rest when you are really tired~ not bad uh? even though there are nasty customers on the phone, i will always say: " i'm just a part timer and i understand your unhappiness, i will reflect it back to my management" and that's it.. settle~ shoik~

i think i know in orchad/somerset where got the CHEAPEST food already, last time everyone always say lucky plaza.. actually not really, should be singtel comm centre B1 de air con food court, the price is totally school canteen de price (Y)

as for my commission.. hmm.. $140 for the past 5 days, see heng suay one.. but i guess $140 is not bad?

i'm in a delimma now, how do i start a conversation with someone I haven spoke to for 5 years? saying hi is retarded, i don know how to approach you because you got me tore apart into pieces 5 year ago. you existed in the best and worst memories during my ite days, even till now.....

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2010-03-14T13:19:00.002+08:00

TIME:1.30pm

Shakespeare once said: life is the C between the B and D.

C for choice.
B for birth.
D for death.

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2010-03-14T01:21:00.003+08:00

TIME:1.30am

quick update! blog hits are dropping. =(

went IT show with keong and yang today. seriously IT show late afternoon is not a good time to go, crowded, they had to block city link and force us exit city link halfway and cross 2 traffic light to suntec =\

keong brought a HTC snap (Y) + $9.90 de 1gb broadband on mobile plan. not much pretty girls out there today, wonder where all of the pretty girls gone to? =(

i've found a job, at somerset.. went racky today and it's about a 15 minute walk from somerset MRT. telemarketer! here i come! many thanks to Angela, a classmate i happen to know during RP life.

i'm tempted to take a broadband plan now, cause this IT show giving 50% promo.. 1 gb onli 9.90.. here's a snapshot of my bro's bill.

1.9gb of usage cost 9909.34. LOL.. he's taking the 30gb plan so for him, in theory, can online his Iphone 24/7.

you're everything i ask for. i love you, fighting

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2010-03-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

TIME:11.45pm

my schedule from sunday till today 7pm was simple. eat, sleep, jog, eat sleep, sleep, eat, sleep.

i declare my dinner tonight was one of the worst in my life and I wonder how my trainer nick (A.K.A himbo) have been eating it for the past 5-6 months?

he has been eating this whole set of food for the past 5-6 month and on a average of 5 times per week: steam chicken breast (no marinates), white rice, boiled egg (egg WHITE only) and broccoli.. i wanted to follow him so what i ate for dinner was steam chicken breast (no marinate), white rice, boiled egg (white onli =.=) and tau kua stir fried vege.

FML. i declare i lost on the 1st attempt, just imagine me sitting with my family eating dinner (they are having roasted meat, dumpling soup, deep fried wedges) WTFFFF.. I CANNOT RESIST THE TEMPTATION OF FOOD.. still, i ate my own portion tonight with tears shedding down my eye. LOL

meet nick at 10pm and we went jogging at the park nearby my hse, 30 minute non stop (stamina training) after that i quite happy coz my limit previously was 20 and the night run was really cooling and helped improve my pacing and breathing but Mr. Trainer say not enough, must do 50 more leg lift, 50 more push up than can go -.-

FML man.. i'm glad to have him around at least someone is pushing me =)

hyori is coming back on april with her new album. I am FUCKING excited about this man. hyori, FIGHTING!

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2010-03-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

TIME:12am

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH MY SIS WENDY AND MY FYP TEAMMATE KOK ANN !

ahhh... juz a update on what's happening around me, kinda sian now, uber sian =\

yang and nick's starting attachment from monday onwards

keong's became a inspector

jun's finishing his course in 3 weeks time

hang's over at thailand

mak's falling in love deeply like there's a bottomless pit

me? storing cowebs. FUCKKK... everyone's doing smth.. OMG.. i got NTH to do =.=

first time i have this kind of experience while finding a job, normally employer does not like to employ ppl who are friends because they R worried the friends might chit chat and not do work but for the 1st time, i found this job requesting me to find one more fren than can work.. WTF.. and the worst part is, i cant find any "friends" and end up i was rejected for the job, FML.

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2010-03-03T18:08:00.003+08:00

TIME:6.15pm

a message extracted from http://www.hyoleesubs.com/ :

Hi everyone~~~

Everyone~~~
After 8 months, recording work is finally done...TT
The work was exhausting, and it was difficult...
I also made everyone wait for a long time... I wanted to do it quicker, but... I really... want to do well..
It seems like I wasted a long time...The recording is finally done..The album should be released as soon as possible..
Towards my fourth official album....I'm looking forward to it and I'm nervous...
I'm very satisfied about the music that I like and that I did in this album...Even though it was hard, it is also an album that will make people very very happy..
I believe everyone will like it too...
Then..I have to go..practice for MV and comeback stage...I will give it my all ^^
Fighting~~~

FINALLY, THE TIME IS NOW.

HYORI, FIGHTING!

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2010-03-02T22:51:00.001+08:00

TIME:11pm

it's quite a blessing to have himbo friends like nick.. others pay hundreds to go fitness gym and get fitness instructor while I have a free consultant. lmao

my body is in extreme pain now, tml will be even worse. woo!

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2010-02-28T17:24:00.000+08:00

TIME:5.30pm

若你今天不杀了他们，明天他们就会杀了你。

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2010-02-24T15:57:00.003+08:00

TIME:5pm

ok. i've decided to create a tumblr too. so now I have a blog, a twitter and a tumblr. hoho~

reason is simple:
blog -> a kind of social media tool for me to express my thoughts through words with readers.

twitter -> a kind of social media tool that communicate faster with other people in short phrases. (actually, for me to whine la and also to follow lee hyori onli~ LOL)

tumblr -> tumblr got a lot of meaningful pic, so i can just repost those pic that represents my feeling at that moment with the auto function of crediting the owner, very convinient.

so the URL to my 3 pages would be:
http://materialisticsociety.blogspot.com/
http://materialisticsociety.tumblr.com/
http://twitter.com/AlexOppa

请多多支持 wor！you can also access via the link column =)

brought my mum an early birthday present!

damage: $385 before d/c, $308 after d/c! =D

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2010-02-24T00:22:00.002+08:00

TIME:12.30am

i went CMPB again today.. it's like the 123456789 times i'm there.. zzz..

on the way home, the train crowd was ok la, reached woodlands and suddenly my cabin was flooded with oldies (seems to be in a group of 7-8) all the seats and taken up by youngster except 2 seat that's already taken up by a lao uncle and a tiong bu.. so end up who gave up this seats to the elderly? the lao uncle gave up his seat, wtf man?

wat's youngster problem nowadays? last week when going to bishan play MJ, when my train door open, 2 secondary school kids pretend that me and wen jie don exist, they onli wan to come into the train, i was dulan and i say out loud that nowadays KIDS got NO manners and screw them, really no manners, totally bo chap.. fuck man~

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2010-02-22T21:29:00.001+08:00

TIME:9.30pm

it's time to end this life, will go back to the gaming world on a full time basis. good bye everyone.

I WILL BE BACK!

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2010-02-21T13:13:00.008+08:00

TIME:1.50pm

I postpone death by living,
by suffering , loneliness
by error , of not giving you the msg earlier
by risking , our friendship
by giving , you to him
by losing . you

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2010-02-19T22:11:00.005+08:00

TIME:10.40apm

credits
p.s I'm in no place to do anything in the first place isn't it?

superman celebrated our second cny together ytd =D wj came to fetch me around 11 than off we go to carrie hse to pick her up coz we wan to go toa payoh de temple to bai tai shui since they are both snake zodiac, i realize i can be a guide at the temple next time if i am jobless lei, i'm quite good with explaining how to pray de procedures and etc. HOHO

after bo peep-ing, wj head home to return car to his dad, than 3 of us cab down to civic to meet yang and mak coz mak suggest to sing K with us.. tks yang for the ride to clementi and we started singing from 3.30 to 8.30~ omg lor the price -.- festive period anyhow tok~ 1 person 27.50.. -.-

steamboat and MJ at shiiingz hse next~ and to all those people who might be taking cab in the morning, the peak hour increase le! last time 7.30 am to 9.30 am, now is 7am til 9.30am.. end up we had to pay extra charge =\

岁月不饶人啊！ last time i ton outside the most sleep from 8 to 12 jiu wake up le, i really must admit old le, i slept till 3.30 today! WTFFFFFFF 老了！！

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2010-02-17T16:10:00.003+08:00

TIME:4.45pm

Credits

GONG XI FA CAI! HUAT AR!!

how's everyone's CNY so far? mine's pretty dull~

2 day before CNY: meetup with 888 for reunion dinner, quite sad this year.. keong plane us because he has this date with a gal who is not even his gf yet.. u better succeed if not we will damn dulan u plan us for her, LOL.. after dinner catch the movie "truth legend" quite surprise siol , that movie is actually made up of 2 part of story and our reunion dinner was at marsiling, vegetarian zhi ca FTW! quite ok lor but personally I feel that the sin ming road one is nicer.

day before CNY: i don know about others but reunion dinner for a hokkien family with god statue is the same and i've been eating it since i'm young till now: braised duck, white chicken, 蒜 (So that can count money)，葱 (so that can be smart), cauliflower with tomato sauce, 豆干(so that can 做官）, roasted pork, stir-fried sea cucumber with fish maw and pig skin and lastly pig stomach soup with abalone~ STANDARD ONE, FOREVER WONT CHANGE =.= i spend the whole day helping my mum at the kitchen with the bai bai thingy too =\

chu 1: standard~ visit both side the grandparents + 1 more uncle de hse.. super boring~ at night wanted play MJ but no ka~ suddenly jo msn me saying she wan MJ, wa~ steady liao! OPEN TABLE at jun hse immediately and play with nik, mak, jo and jun.. chill at mac with mak to wait for 1st train and had the mac's new deluxe breakfast.. very filling (Y)

chu 2: meetup with keong, nik and mak to go each other hse bai nian~ keong hse 1st stop and played guitar hero, quite fun siol.. i kinda addicted to it but.... i don have PS 3 =.= my hse next and i'm quite sorry to my bros.. my hse got no entertainment one -.-, 3rd stop nick hse and as usual, gamble =.=

chu 3: FML, rot whole day

chu 4: suay man.. fucking suay.. chu 4 jiu go hospital le.. !@#$%^&*( YES, i went SGH this morning for the medical checkup! and i'm on medication now for 2 months + a followup appointment.. the worst part is that doctor filled in my form inproperly and now CMPB ask me go back next week chat with them.. FML.. I DON STAY AT QUEENSTOWN PLZ!! meeting wj and carrie later for MJ with carrie's fren ._.

tml meeting superman, sing K + steamboat at shiiingz hse and overnight MJ again~

i keep having this feeling that i gotta go back to sch, fuck man.. i have graduated but i don have the graduating feeling -.- sometimes i still login to leo (RP's student portal) and sch webmail the 1st thing i come online. LOL

i'll be waiting for you <3

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2010-02-08T21:26:00.003+08:00

TIME:12.30am

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does anyone know how painful it is to have this kind of feeling, i try to put on a strong front showing people i'm okay, i'm fine, i'm cool, i'm chill.. but the truth is, my tears are already dried up..

people say tears are made up of 1% water and 99% emotion but i guess i've been affected 100% by my emotion, I cant seem to find anymore tears.. yes, i've teared because of you because i know you are worth it and till now, i'm still hoping that one day..... a miracle will happen

there's so so so so so many things i hope i can share with you, but i'm an introvert.. everytime i see u, it reminds me that you already belongs to someone else and instantly i take 10 steps backward.. i believe I'm doing the right thing because it's all for the sake of the 大局着想 but.... what about me?

perhaps both of us are born to be real good actor/actress, you know I'm posting about you and I know u have read all the post that was meant for you but I've never manage to truly know how you truly felt and you look to me like you didn't read a word about any of my post but of course, perhaps this is the only way left so that that we can continue to live in front of each other isnt it?

I'm not emo-ing all of a sudden my dear readers, i've been feeling like this since.......... I've lost track how long I have been feeling like this.. self pwn =.=

when i listen to wedding dress by tae yang, i felt so optimistic at the start:

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make me feel fine again
I have to keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz if not, we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

but the ending became this.....

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

The wound, the pain, the hurt, the emptiness, the damage....... I really hate my existence, 老天爷, 快点来收拾我吧..

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2010-02-07T23:45:00.003+08:00

TIME:12am

i finally applied for NTU! now i'm crossing my finger for everything to be smooth =\

below is the screenshot of my choice(s).. don laugh when u guys see ok? some of my choice might make u go "WTF?" =)

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2010-02-05T22:52:00.003+08:00

TIME: 11.45pm

why am i standing like this in front you again, am i a fool
getting tricked with my own feeling again and again, and suffering again and again

i think i’ve gone crazy, have i got no pride
i come back to you, like going around in a circle
saying ‘i can’t be like this’
i’m being like this again today, nooooooo
i keep going back to you. i don’t know why

why do i seem like such a fool
why did i become like this
i made a firm decision
why do i keep coming back to you, again and again

what kind of medicine are you, that i can’t give it up
even without me knowing, i keep yearning for you, and eventually look for you again
though i know you’re an attach girl, i embrace you and love you again
undoubtedly, clearly, i want to come towards you
knowing all the pains of tomorrow, i can’t turn around, i can’t decide

darn it, why am i like this, why am i cheating to random girls next to me
how many more times do i have to do this for me to come to my senses
someone, tie me down somewhere, quickly, please
she’s an attach girl, i know, but here i go again. nooooooo

again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. i don’t know why, i don’t fcuking know why
i fall for anything that's about you and i don't even know why

damn it.. free time for me = emo.. fuckkkkkk

tml is Biz Finance UT 3, the hardest module and the 1st UT in round 3, let's hope 50% of the whole cohort fail again and maybe at that time, moderation will be our best friend. (Y)

never the less, everyone plz do ur best!

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2010-02-03T22:46:00.003+08:00

TIME:11pm

i'm very worried now. so worried that I'm having sweaty palms and I cant focus on anything I do..

There's news that hyori will be using a "foreign song" as her title song, I have confident in her, I really do.. but because her comeback has been delayed again and again, people's expectation will be REAL HIGH.. i believe her performance will be breath taking, she will/can do it but I'm just worried she might be too stressful and might breakdown anytime because she has such high expectation for herself..

No matter what, please drink plenty of water and have plenty of rest before your comeback ok? <3

이효리, FIGHTING!

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